She burns wildfires in my chest and I thank her for it.
I don't know how to handle this kind of love. When cafe dates and fluffy romance tastes more like blood than honey, when everything starts feeling so intense.
"I'm scared," the words slip through ny teeth, and I wish I could suck them back into my mouth and hold them captive under my tongue.
Kestra turns to me, surprise shaping her eyes wide.
"You're scared? Of what?" She spoke with a breathy laugh, I feel my heartbeat riot.
"Of this. Of us. I don't...my relationships have been disasterous in the past. I'm a mess. This is a lot and I don't know what to do," I say, hazel eyes avoiding hers.
"Is it too much for you?" Kestra's tone wasn't angry, it wasn't harsh. But she spoke brashly, loudly, direct. There was no cushoning of her blows. I like it that way.
"I don't think so." I reach out, playing with her hair. The glossy black strands twine around my fingers as I stroke it almost absent-mindedly. "I'm scared but I want this. I can handle this, I just don't know how. And I don't want to hurt you when I mess up," I stutter out.
"Wolfhound," Kestra's voice carried a smile, amusement in her voice. "You probably will hurt me. And I'll hurt you. We just have to learn to work around our problems and repair our arguements and treat each other as good as we can. Figure out what's a normal, healthy disagreement and what's a serious issue that we need to deal with. And that's okay."
I wish I could be as confident as she is.
She kisses me, sinking into my mouth like syrup. I could choke on her. I let out a little gasp, and she smiles against my teeth. I clench my fists, grasping handfuls of her hair. Her cool brown cheek rests against my own, and I can't help but feel like maybe, maybe she's right. Maybe we can make it all okay.
These are characters from a book I wanna publish!! I had another version of this that was honestly so good but I lost it when I lost all my writing so eh this is a thing now. Listen I love these gay girls so much and I want to start developing their story more from just some ideas so stay tuned I guess.
I'm v rusty with writing romance so I'm gonna be trying to write more!
