Listen, I love Nightstar with all my heart. But he's been demoted. I'm a Heathertail stan now. Wife!!
BlackbirdNight is still 100% happening but now we're making Heathertail x new self insert oc a thing.
Blackbirdflight started out being exactly like me but she became her own character over time. In a way, she's an unhealthy version of me. I was thinking about this which gave me an idea. This idea would change the BlackbirdNight fic so I'll have to think about it.
Do you guys know the enneagram test? I'd really recommend looking into it; it's another form of personality test, like the Myers Briggs/mbti one. There are 8 "types" and each type has a subtype called a wing. It tells you your basic fear and your basic desire and talks about your personality in general. Mine is scarily accurate. You can be a healthy (type) or an unhealthy (type).
So I'm a 4w5 which means my basic fear is having no identity or significance. My basic desire is to have a solid identity and significance. Here's a little more about it.
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So I had this idea that Blackbirdflight and my new self-insert would represent my personality.
Blackbirdflight would represent the unhealthy 4w5 (so like...me) and my new self insert oc would represent the healthy 4w5 (the me I could be with therapy lmao)
Just an idea.
Blackbirdflight (I'm probably going to change her name to just Blackbird - I'm not the biggest fan of compound warrior names but they happen in canon and Blackbirdflight has always bothered me with how clunky and long it is): - She'd have the same family as I do: good parents that I'm just not close to, my autistic twin, and a grandparent she's very close to, possibly close younger cousins. - she'd possess some of the same mental health problems as me: the-not-diagnosed-but-highly-likely pdd/dysthymia, and body dysmorphia. Isolation and some form of food restriction. That's all that I really want to write about. - Some of my negative traits that fit with being an unhealthy 4w5: jealousy, self-destructive, blaming others, being obsessive, manipulative. (I'm just out here roasting myself, huh)
While the new oc, Sloe(suffix) is the healthy version of me. For family, I don't really have any more to offer so I might just push her into a random family or maybe base them off my cats. (My cats will come into it either way!! If WindClan numbers need filling up like they did in Eyesore, new ocs will come in! But this will probably follow the canon allegiances instead of me fixing the mistakes the Erin's made.) - My positive traits!: Idealistic, empathetic, passionate, open-minded and devoted. - She'd show the experience I went through losing a close friend (it was literally like the break up of a 10 year relationship) and how it hit me super hard but I grew and got over that shit - She'd showcase the healing and self betterment journey I want to go on.
I don't have an actual storyline for Sloe(suffix) yet. I don't even have a name yet! Sloefeather? Sloefur? Sloebee since I love bees? Sloehaze? Sloedapple? Sloefern? Sloefall? I'll need to think of a storyline - an alternative for the storyline of AvOS. It would have to be WindClan-centric.
