Writing Angst

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I was reading through Sirens again because most of the time I forget it exists, and I was reading the comments at the end and most of them were complimenting my writing style and the poetry of it all. I'm just upset because I feel like I've lost that element in my writing. I've been trying to make my writing more functional but I can have both functionality and some poetic elements.

I'm just frustrated because I feel like I'm losing the most interesting and best part of my writing. I've been trying so hard to improve on my writing skills in terms of character voice and pacing and plot and the more I learn about writing the more i doubt myself and my own abilities. I have a lot of regrets with how I paced Eyesore. I was trying to follow the books and it meant that the action ended up coming quite late. If this was a real book it would've been too boring in the beginning. Its only just getting into the prophecy now. I've been trying to take this as seriously as I would with a published book but that's tough because fanfictions are pretty much all first drafts. I've built up all these expectations and I feel like I'm letting myself down. Idk. Writing is the one thing I'm slightly good at but now I'm feeling like my writing is shit.

I'm going to try incorporating more poetry into my writing when it's appropriate but it's not as easy as it used to be. This is just a short angsty update, that's all.

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