lungs

part 19

i walked to the bus stop alone the next morning. lil skies played through my ears as i kicked pebbles on the side walk.

he looks at me and smiles, "god i love you." he said, playfully shaking his head.

he loves me? like as a friend or more than a friend. does our kisses mean something to him like they do to me?

i see jacob walking as i turned the the corner. i waved to him but he just rolled his eyes. i sigh and continue walking to the bus stop.

i waited at the bus stop and shivered. i remembered when joey blowed on my hands to make me warm up more. why does everything remind me of him?

i'm not falling for him, am i?

no, well, maybe.

god i love you

those words keep on replying in my head and i don't know why. his voice is so smooth, it's makes me relaxed.

the bus stops in front of us. jacob runs in front of me getting on the bus first, pushing me a little.

"oh sorry, didn't see you there." he said with sarcasm. he did see me there, what a dick.

i got on the bus and went through the isle. jacob sat in the back again away from me. i sat in joey and i's seat.

i sighed and leaned back in the seat. "are you ever going to call me by my first name?" i asked.

he lifted his head from his arms and laid his head against my shoulder. "i doubt it."

i lay my head against his head, "then i'll call you joseph, joseph."

he smirked with his eyes closed. "okay, cross."

i love how he calls me cross instead of my own name. it's like our little thing.

thing

is that what joey and i are? a thing? friends don't kiss, friends don't put their hands on each other thighs, friends don't sneak in with a rose and a box of chocolates just because.

is that why people asked me if i'm dating him? we're always together, always laughing and smiling.

oh god.

i'm falling for him.

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"so class." mrs. smith said, "we're picking partners for our project today."

i sighed and rested my chin on my arm. jacob isn't even gonna be partners with me, if he "didn't see me there" on the bus this morning.

"anna!" i heard a voice say.

i lift my head up and look around. "over here." i see a hand waving and i realized who it was, jeremy.

i get up from my seat and walk over to him. "hey." i said, i thought he was friends with jacob, shouldn't he be with jacob then?

"do you wanna be partners?" he asked, "jacob wanted to work alone." he said.

i look at jacob, he's sitting down at his seat. i look back at jeremy and smile, "sure"

"okay." he said. i sat down next to him and we began our project.

the project is basically making posters for a football game this weekend. it's due on friday, it's wednesday right now so we have some time.

i've been at this school for like almost month and i have so much work.

"can you pass me the scissors?" i asked jeremy.

he nodded and handed me the scissors. "can i ask you something, anna?"

i cut the paper and put the scissors down, "um sure."

"do you know what's up with jacob? he's hasn't talked to anyone since zach got suspended."

"how long is zach suspended for?" i asked.

he shrugs, "i don't know but jacob isn't acting himself. he's so mean." he said.

"you don't say." i chuckled. "yeah i don't know, what's up."

"oh okay." he said.

we were continuing working for 5 minuets until he wanted to ask another question, this aint no q&a.

"i have one more question." he said.

"okay." i said.

"are you and joey dating?" he asked, with hesitation.

i looked down.

he looks at me and smiles, "god i love you." he said, playfully shaking his head.

i took a deep breath, "i don't know.