lungs

part 90

my eyes shoot open from the urge to puke. i got up ran to my dresser to get a sweatshirt and some shorts, leaving joey still in bed.

i opened the door and moved my hair back, letting the puke arise in me and out my mouth.

i grabbed both of the sides of the toilet as i started to puke more, letting it all out.

as i was puking, i felt hands wrap around my hair and being pulled out of my face.

as i was done, i leaned back and wiped my mouth. i turned around and saw joey standing behind me as he let go of my hair.

i widened my eyes as i saw him. "what are you doing!?" i whisper yelled. "go back into my room, my mom doesn't know you're here!"

i started to push his legs but he grabbed my arms, helping me up from the ground. "you were puking, i had to help you." he whispers.

"joey, my mom still thinks you're in florida." i say, pushing his chest to push him back into my room.

he put his arms up in defense as i closed the door behind me. "you're so cute when you're bossy, cross."

i blushed and rolled my eyes as i sat back down on the bed, leaving him unanswered.

he sat down on the edge of the bed and looked at me. "so, when do you wanna leave?" he asked.

i shrugged, "i don't know."

"you said that you want to run away with me." he says, coming up on the bed so he's next to me.

i sighed, "yeah but we were in the moment." i said.

"so you're saying you don't wanna run away with me?" he says, confused.

"no..i mean yes. joey don't get me wrong, i totally do but i can't just leave everything behind like this." i said.

"what do you want?" he asked.

"it's not that simple." i said.

"anna, that do you want?" he repeats.

"joey i can't just decide."

"it's either leave with me or never see me again." he says, causing me to get startled.

"what?"

"which one is it?" he says, standing up from the bed.

"you're just gonna leave if i say no?" i asked and he nods.

i chuckled. "you're nothing like the joey i use to know." i said, looking down.

"what?"

i scoffed. "my joey wouldn't do this to me. he wouldn't threaten to leave me because he always said that he would be with me. i don't even know who you are anymore." i say, just letting it all out.

"i changed because you threw me away, anna! you thought that we wouldn't make it if we tried long distance so you ended us. i loved you! and i still love you!" he says, almost shouting.

"i didn't break up with you! i suggested it and you agreed." i say, not lying one bit.

"then maybe we should stay broken up." he says, catching me off guard. "because clearly you want to stay here and you just don't want to say it."

"i never said that joey." i say, protesting.

"well i said it for you then." he says, making us both go silent.

i can't believe he's saying this. i can't believe he's actually gonna leave me. "if you love me joey...then you wouldn't leave me behind. you're making it difficult for the both of us when you can just stay."

he looks down and doesn't make eye contact with me as he opened my window. " i love you enough to let you go." he says, stepping out the window.

i looked up at him as he was climbing out the window. "wait what?"

he looks at me as he was climbing down the tree. "bye anna."

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the end:(

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