lungs

part 55

{i'm skipping time bc im too lazy to do anything}

1 month later

joey and i are good now. our relationship has been even better and stronger than ever since that night when he came to my window.

i forgave jacob because i figured out that i don't have anything to be mad at him about. he's dating jeremy, which is fine.

i had a feeling that jeremy was some type of gay. although i'm not friends with jeremy, jacob told me that jeremy was bi. im fine with that.

maybe jeremy and i would be friends again, but not anytime soon.

my wrist is okay now. hunter and i are cool but we're not friends. he told me that he was sorry for snapping my wrist and i forgave him. but i don't think we would ever be close again then what we were.

"babe" joey says.

"hm." i said. i love when he calls me that. butterflies always come into my stomach when he calls me babe.

"what college do you think you wanna go to?" joey asked. the answer is that i don't really know. i'm a junior and i don't know where i wanna go.

i shrug, "i don't really know. do you know?"

he shakes his head, "no. i don't know if i wanna go to college."

i frown, "why?"

he sits up in the bed from laying down. he spent the night last night. we didn't like do anything, he came over in the middle of the night because his stepdad and his mom we're arguing.

"i don't find it interesting." he says.

i sit up also, "do you know what you wanna be when you get out of high school?"

he shakes his head again, "no."

it was silent. a nice silent between us.

joey lays back down in bed and stares at the ceiling. i lay down too and put my head on his chest. he then takes his hand and traces his hand down my back.

"do you ever wonder what our lives would be like if we didn't meet?" he asked, "like what if you didn't move into my neighborhood?"

"but i did." i said, and it's true.

"i know but, what if? you know? because like..."he pauses, " sometimes i think i don't deserve you. you're literally perfect, your smile, your laugh, everything about you is perfect. how did i get so lucky?"

"i guess it was destiny." i said.

he looks down at me and smiles, "i guess it was destiny." he said, before he kisses my forehead.

"anna!" i hear my mom yell from downstairs.

i get up from bed and sigh. "i got to go."

"let me come. i want your mom to like me more." he wined.

"but then she'll know u spent the night." i told him.

"and? just say that i came though the window. it's not like you lied to your mom before." he says.

"i haven't. i tell her everything." i said.

"you can't lie to her once?" he asked.

"anna!" mom says from downstairs.

"coming!" i yells before i turn to joey, "only one time thing."

he smiles and claps his hands together. "yay." he says.

i roll my eyes and open the door before going downstairs. i see my mom holding sam with a girl beside her.

my breathing hitched as i saw her. i thought i would never see her again. she never texted me ever and thinks she can just show up?

"mckenna?"

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you don't want no smoke.