lungs

part 83

jacob put his hand on my back and came close to my ear. "let's go." he whispers.

it's like i want to go but i don't, i just want to look at him. he's different now, we both are. i got a nose piercing, belly piercing and died my ends dark red.

not his appearance but i can just tell he changed. he's more "glassy" if that makes sense. as if i feel like i'm not enough to be around him.

the blond hair girl stared at me and arched a brow, "who are you."

i snapped back to reality, "no one." i looked down and took jacobs hand. "i was just leaving."

i pushed the stroller away from the park, not saying a word to either of them.

he's probably gonna move to florida. i guarantee he won't even think twice staying here in new york. he seems happy with his new girl, and i could care less.

i don't want to see him, i don't want to even hear his voice ever again.

"are you okay?" jacob asked as we were about to go to my house.

i nodded, "yeah i'm fine." i'm fine, i'm fine. i'm okay. everything is okay.

"you sure?" jacob asked me.

i sighed as we went to my driveway. "maybe you should go home jacob, okay? i kinda don't feel good."

he nodded, "oh yeah, totally. my um- my cat has lime disease so i gotta...handle tha- yeah i'll see you later."

i chuckled, "bye jacob."

he turned around and started to walk to his house. i brought sam inside to see my mom making something to eat.

"hey, anna." she says as i get into the kitchen after bringing sam out of the stroller.

i put sam in his high chair. "hey."

"were you on a walk?" she asked me, turning around to face me.

"yeah, i went with jacob." i said. i don't want to be here. i just want to be alone right now. "i'm gonna go to the store."

"okay." she says, "do you need mon-"

"no." i said, grabbing my keys and heading towards the door.

luckily, i got my license so i can go anywhere i want now. i'm not actually going to the store, i don't know where i'm going.

i walked out of the house, shutting the door. i got into the car and sighed.

i started it up and pulled out of he driveway. driving out of the neighborhood, i played some music to lighten up my mood.

i started to play christian leave, i find his voice so southing for when i'm in a bad mood.

i ended driving to a place i haven't been to ever since valentine's day. i always liked this place ever since joey took me to it.

i got out of the car and walked up the path, letting the breeze hit my face.

i didn't bring a blanket so i had to sit down on the grass. i pulled out my phone from my pocket and turned on my music again.

wasn't he supposed to come like in two days? why is he even here early? why do i even care anyways? he's my ex.

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sorry its so short!

things will happen soon w anna and joey so hang tight

i won't be updating until wednesday:)

try to guess what happens, bet you can't!