lungs

part 87

I am so sorry that I haven't been active for the past weeks. I went on vacation to Europe and I just haven't had the time, plus I've been having writers block since I'm so far in the book. But, I promised all of you that I would update and I am!

{I'm changing Steven's name to Chris because I just feel like Steven doesn't fit. Joey's dad feels like more of a Chris anyways to me.}

"anna!" i hear as i was eating breakfast. it was sams voice from the living room.

i got up from the kitchen island counter and walked into the living room. He was sitting in the middle of the ground looking up at me, smiling.

"Up up!" He says, and clapping his hands together, making me think about kashius.

I smiled and picked him up. Cradling him in my hands, I walked over into the kitchen with him on my hip. I put him in his high chair so he could be with me as I eat.

As i began to eat again, mom came down from the stairs. He hair was in a messy bun and she just looked really tired.

"Mom? Are you okay?" I asked her, thinking what could possibly be wrong.

"Yeah I'm fine, hun." She says. " I just didnt sleep well last night."

"Oh, okay." I said, taking a bite of my ceral.

"Sarah and Matthew sent you something in the mail. It looked like a post card." Mom says, making my face light up. "Its still in the mailbox though, so you're gonna have to walk up there."

I sighed out of laziness. I got the mail key and put on my slides, heading to the door.

"I'll be back." I say, walking out of the house and shutting the door behind me.

I start walking to the mailbox. Some neighborhoods have their mailboxes at the front of the house and others you have to walk there. Unfortunately, you have to walk to mine.

I walk up to the mailbox and put the key in. I turned the key, opening the mail box. I started grabbing the mail inside, checking for the post card.

"Hey babe." I hear, making me startled beofre dropping all of the mail on the ground.

"Damn it." I say, looking down at the mail all over the pavement.

I looked back and up and saw Jacob there, trying to hold in his laugh. I sighed as I saw his face, how am I gonna break up with a face like that? It's so fragile and innocent, i cant hurt it.

"Hi jacob." I say, getting on the ground and picking up the mail.

"Let me help you."he says, getting down with me as well.

We started to pick up the mail as I was still trying to find the post card. When we were done, I stood up and held the mail in my hands, making sure I wont drop it this time.

I close our mailbox slot and locked it. Jacob was just standing there, smiling at me.

I cant do this, not here. I smile back at him, reflecting his stance.

He snapped back to reality, "do you want to go to the movies this weekend with me? Toy story 4 is out."

"It is?" I asked him, surprised. I didnt even know there was a toy story 4, I thought they stopped at 3.

He put his hands in his pockets and shook his head. "Yeah, you didn't know?"

"No." I said, almost a whisper.

"So do you wanna go?" He asked again.

"Yeah, duh." I say.

If I'm going to "run away" with joey, I might as well spend time with the people I love before leaving with the love of my life.

I'm not even sure I want to do this, I mean I'm leaving everything behind. My mom, my house, my friends, my family, my home. I'm leaving everything.

I was the one who stayed with mom when no one else did, I'm the one who didnt leave her side when she had sam. And now, I'm leaving her all alone with no one to help her.

I'm gonna leave haillie, jack, and jacob. Everyone, just so I could be happy with the person I love the most, joey.

I mean, dont you have to sacrifice things in order to be happy?