lungs

part 92

one week later

as i was sitting on the couch with jacob, i felt the urge to puke again. this is the third time today and i think something is wrong with me.

ever since joey left, i've been puking, i don't know why though.

i got up and ran to the downstairs bathroom behind the couch with jacob following behind me. i started to puke in the toilet as jacob held my hair back.

"this is the third time today, anna. are you okay?" jacob asked, holding back my hair.

i lifted up my head and wiped my mouth, "i'm fine. it has to be a stomach virus or something. it's probably n-" i went back to the toilet and puked again.

"are you done yet?" he asked me.

i nodded and flushed the toilet before jacob helped me up from the ground. we walked back to the couch and sat back down.

"jeremy's throwing a party tonight. jack and haillie are going too." jacob says, catching me by surprise.

"you're cool with jeremy?" i asked.

"yeah we dated for like almost half a year. he's like one of my bestfriends." he says, making me surprised. how can you be cool with your ex to go to their party? you guys have to have like at least some tension between you.

"oh okay. i haven't seen him in a while."i said leaning back on the couch.

"you're cool with him right? like what happened last year you're over it?" he says with a questionable face.

i forgot about it. i was such a sensitive bitch in the beginning of the year when i first came, now i could careless of what people think of me. "yeah i'm fine with it." i say.

he pats my back and smiles. "good." he says before changing the subject. "where did joey go today?" he asked. "i saw him walking out of the neighborhood this morning with a backpack on."

he's leaving and never coming back, ever. "i don't know and i don't care." i chuckled.

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i walked into jeremy house with jacob as loud music filled my ears. it wasn't a big party as the other ones i been to, theres was about 15-20 people. it wasn't as crowed which i liked.

jacob puts his hand on my shoulder as he comes up to my ear. "i'm gonna get us some drinks. what do you want?" he asked.

"water would be fine." i said because i hate drinking alcohol.

as i stood there with the loud music filling my ears, i felt a tap on my shoulder. i turned around and saw haillie standing there. "oh my gosh, hey!" she says, holding her arms out asking for a hug.

i smiled and gave her a hug. "hi!" i said to her, before pulling away from the hug.

"we haven't talked in a while! how are you, anna?" she asked me.

"i've been doing good. i'm dating jacob now so that's great." i said.

she gasped. "since when are you dating jacob? i thought you were with joey."

"yeah we kinda broke up once school ended. he was going away for the summer and we got into this argument and yeah." i said.

"when is the last time you talked to him?" she asked, titling her head a little bit and taking a sip of her drink.

last week. i shrugged. "i don't know. we ended on bad terms and haven't talked since." i lie.

she patted my shoulder and nodded. "i really liked you two together, it's like you guys were meant to be. but hey, if you need anyone to talk to you can always call me."

i chuckled. "yeah...hey what about you and jack."

"oh boy." she says.

she began telling me that jack left and went to texas. she said that he told her that his grandma died so he had to go to texas for the summer. but before he left, she told him that she liked him and he felt the same. he also promised her that he would come back and they would be together.

sometimes feelings go away though. and being away for even month, you can find someone new. joey told me that we would be together forever but he left. maybe we were meant to be, just not now.

maybe in another world we're together like he said with kids and grandkids. looking up at the stars as our days get closer to our last day. maybe one day we would be together again.

"hey." i hear. i get out of my thoughts and see jacob holding a cup of water. "here's your water."

i took it from him and smiled. "thank you." i said, taking a sip.

he wrapped his arm around my shoulder and looked at haillie. "hey."

i took another sip of the water before feeling my stomach growl. i told jacob to hold my cup as i ran to the bathroom, soon to puke for the 100th time today.

it wasn't a lot though so that's good. haillie stood by the door as i puked with a concern look on her face. "have you been doing this a lot?" she asked.

"only sometimes, but mostly in the morning." i told her, getting up from the toilet after flushing it.

"when was the last time you and jacob..." she looked like she was trying to put words together.

"when was the last time me and jacob what?" i asked.

"like you know.. had sex?" she says, whispering so no one around won't here.

i chuckled. "we hadn't done it yet."

"well what about you and joey? " she says.

i looked down as i realized i was caught in a lie. "last night." i said under my breath.

"hm?"

"last week." i said, looking back up at her. "i lied...he came over last week and we you know."

she sighs, "do you know what this means?" she asked me.

"what?" i say.

"you could be pregnant."