lungs

part 94

{Sorry that I haven't been active in a week. I've been feeling down and just havent been motivated to write anything. I'll try to push myself more to update for you all who read this book.}

1 week later

i haven't told jacob the news, i'm scared to. what if he leaves me because it's not his?

I've been pregnant for two weeks and the communication I've had with him was only call. I bare even talk to him because I'm scared to say the wrong thing.

Tomorrow is my first check up and I'm so scared. I dont think I'm ready to have this baby with all that's going on in my life. My mom doesn't even know yet and it would be another mouth to feed.

I'm supposed to go out with haillie later today but she hasn't gave me a time yet.

I'm glad I have her as a friend because I dont think anyone else would be here with me.

Summer is almost over and I'll be a senior really soon. I cant believe the time is going by so fast.

I was sitting on my bed, covered up in my blankets. On my night stand, my phone made a loud buzzing sound.

I sat up in bed and look at what or who it was, haillie. I put my code in and went to her text.

Haillie
'What time do you want to hang out?'

Me
'It doesn't matter what time, I'm never busy.'

Haillie
'Would right now be a good time?"

Me
'Yeah, lol."

Haillie
'Be ready, and dont look bad because we're going out to a party."

Me
"Party?"

Seen

I got out of bed and went to my closet. I scanned through my clothes as I found a black dress, not recognizing it at all. It must've been mckennas or something because I definitely dont recognize this dress at all.

At least it's cute

I walked to my vanity mirror and put the black silk dress over my body, imagining what I would look like if I had it on.

I squinted my eyes and looked closer, debating if I should wear this. This is a party dress right?

I shrugged and threw the dress onto my purple bed sheets, making the dress stand out so you could tell something was on the bed.

I went back to my closet and looked for something to wear over the dress. As I was looking, I looked down and saw the box.

The box that I told myself  I would never open. I squatted down and picked up the box, and placing it on my bed.

But maybe a peek wont hurt. I stood in front of it, starring at it.

I promised myself to not open this thing, ever. Not in a million years.

"No." I said to myself, in a low whisper. I picked up the box and put it back in its reserved place and where it should belong.

I ended up picking out a light washed baggy jean jacket that went with the dress.

I did my hair by letting my natural curls lay out with golden big hoop earrings, not real gold of course. My makeup was spot on with the whole natural look with  shiny lip gloss that brought out my eyes.

I finished up the loop by adding lotion on my legs and spraying perfume on myself, giving myself a stronger scent.

I looked back at my mirror and a smiled plastered on my face. I was happy by the way I looked in weeks, maybe even a month.

I got my purse and put everything I needed inside of it. I put it across my shoulder and grabbed my phone.

Just in time, haillie texted me that she was here. I go up to my moms door and knock on it.

"Mom I'm going out, I'll be back around ten or ten thirtyish." I say, looking at the time and seeing that it was only 7pm.

"Be safe."I heard her say faintly.

"I will." I said before going downstairs and into the living room where the front door is.

I put on my shoes, black old school converses, and laced them up before opening the door.

I walked out of my house and closed the door behind me. As I walked down the stairs to my house, I saw the look on haillies face.

I looked down and blushed as I approached her car. I opened the door and got in, shutting it right after.

She looked at me up and down and gasped, covering her mouth as well. "Look at you!" She says, touching a strand of my hair. "You look so good, oh my gosh!"

I giggled and looked at her outfit. She had a black, v cut shirt on with red, orange, and yellow camouflage pants, matching very well as her hair was half up and half down and separated with a red, dark washed scrunchie.

"Your outfit is literally so cute, what do you mean?" I laughed.

"Not as cute as yours." She laughed, turning back on the car.

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Sorry that this chapter was so boring, oml.

(I also deleted '15 hours' because I didnt  really like how I wrote it, but thank you once again for 100k. It means a lot, really.)