lungs

part 30

i wake up to the sun shining in from the window. i sit up in bed and look over to see joey not there. i get my phone and check my messages.

8:06
"hey, cross. i left early so my mom wouldn't get the belt on me."

i read the text and reply.
10:31
"okay, remember, we have to finish that project for mr. skies."

he didn't take long to reply
10:32
"alright what time do you wanna work on it?"

10:33
"i don't know sometime today tho."

10:33
"well i'll just come by like tonight i guess."

10:34
"okay."
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i turn off my phone and get out of bed to stretch. i walk out and get in the bathroom to take a shower

"i love you." he whispers.

those words keep in replaying in my head like a movie scene. joey loves me, and i all i said back was dido. god i'm so stupid.

once i get out of the shower, i go to my room and get changed.

buzz

i pick up my phone and see who texted me.

zach:
11:03
"hey babygirl."

should i reply?

11:04
"leave me alone, zach. ion want ur STDs"

zach:
11:04
"STDs? me? never."

11:05
"love the sacrcasm."

zach:
11:06
"come on, i thought we were friends."

blocked.

"anna!" i hear my name get called from downstairs. i run downstairs to see my whole family on the couch, just like the time i was told that my family was getting divorced.

"yes?" i asked, sitting in between sarah and mathew.

mom looks at dad than back at me. "h-have you made your decision?"

i scoffed as anger and annoyance took over me. "no i haven't."

"mathew and sarah have." dad said from behind the three of us.

i look at sarah, "who are you going to live with?" i asked, almost whispering.

"um," she paused and looked down. "d-dad."

i sigh and look at mathew, "and you?"

he doesn't make eye contact with me, i'm kinda getting the idea of what he's about to say. "dad too." he whispers.

i look at mom and squinted my eyes at her like she was a weird looking monster. "and you're just gonna let this happen, mom?"

she shakes her head, and she's on the verge of crying. "i'm sorry, but anna, we need to know."

i look at all of them like they're monsters, and not just mom. christmas is in two weeks and we aren't even spending it together as a family.

i blot up from the couch as my eyes get watery. "i can't just choose!" i yelled.

they all looked at me and widened their eyes. "anna, don't talk to us like that." dad yelled.

"fuck this!" i yelled, surprisingly i never curse. so this is a start.

i walked out of the house, slamming the door behind me. i stormed down the front stairs and started to walk down the sidewalk.

i don't wanna talk to anyone right now, not even joey. surprisingly. i just wanna be alone and try to make a decision for my family.

i approached the swings at the park. it's the same park that joey and i went to when i found out my parents were getting divorced.

the funny thing is, they never showed anything as if they were going to get divorced.

wait.

i rolled my eyes and stormed out to the moving truck. my mom inside the back getting the christmas tree. "mom you don't need to do that." i said as i approached her, "dad can get it."

she wipes sweat off of her forehead as she pants. "your dad isn't here right now, he's with sarah getting the car from the airport." she says.

dad wasn't there when we first moved in. he was out with sarah. was that a sign?

but, if i make the decision of staying here than i can be with joey. but if i go with dad then mom would be all alone and joey and i would be those long distance couples. which in other wise, long distance relationships never work out because you don't know if they're cheating right there on the spot.

cheating

if i did leave, would we be a long distance couple? and...would he cheat? with lexi?

no

he won't

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hi guys. so i have a little situation going on in my life at the moment. i don't know if i may or may not be able to continue with my stories. if you wanna know the situation, go on my "rants about my life" and then scroll down to number 29.

i'm trynna figure out what i can do to continue for you guys and update. but ily guys🧡