lungs

part 54

"you're what?" i say with confusion. despite that him and i have our difficulties and differences, i never thought joey would fall in love with me. i mean, i love him too, i love him with all my heart, but i can't say that i'm in deep deep deep love with him. not yet.

"cross, i'm in love you. i can't go a day with out thinking about you. when i saw you that day when you-" i finished his sentence.

"moved in? when i came to your front door asking for some help. i remember." i said. of course i remember, that's the day when i first met joey.

he nods, "yes. i knew it was love at first sight."

love at first sight

nothing is more power than love it's self. thus i am confident in my self worth and a value, i don't know if i feel the same. as if, there's something in my heart that's not quite ready to come out.

confusingly, that something is strong and powerful. it's so powerful that it could wipe out a whole community if it was dangerous. but, the something isn't dangerous to any human being except for myself.

it takes over me like i'm under a magic spell or some kind of gaze. it has the most power over me when i'm near or even with joey. it makes me feel a way that i never felt before. that's why it's so dangerous.

isn't that love though? feeling like you're in a fairy tale when you're actually in reality. can i say that i'm in love with him because i have something inside of me that's dangerous to my own being? isn't love when you only want to be with that person, for maybe until your last breath?

i'm in love with joey. i know now, i'm in love with him too. "joey." i pause, "... i'm in l-love with you too."

he face lights up just like he just one the lottery, "what? can you say that again?"

"i'm in love with you joey." i said, smiling from ear to ear. i feel good about saying that. i feel good because it's the truth.

he takes both of my hands and looks at me in the eyes. "can i show you something?"

i arch an eyebrow, "i don't know if i'm ready-"

he cuts me off, "no not that silly. i mean unless you-"

"no no no i'm fine. what do you wanna show me?"

he gets up from the bed and opens the window. "i wanna show you something that i've been planning to."

"oh. um okay." i said.

we both climbed out the window and went across the street to his house. there, we got into his car and started driving.

"where exactly are we going joey?" i asked him as we drove out of the neighborhood.

he took his hand off the steering wheel and laced his fingers with with mine, smiling at me. "it's a surprise." he said as he kissed the top of my hand.

i could feel my face flush with red as he kissed my skin. i looked out the window and watched as we drove away from the city.

we were passing all the city buildings, going into a place that was unfamiliar to me. even thought i'm new to new york, i can remember the streets very well. but this street wasn't so familiar.

after driving for 20 minutes in comfortable silence with each other, we pulled up into and abandoned parking lot. i looked out the window and noticed how pitch black it was, probably because it's 3am.

joey puts on his flashlight from his phone and gets out the car. i watch him go around the car and come around my side to open the door for me.

"madam." he said, holding out his hand for me to get out.

i giggled and took his hand before i got out of the car. he then leaded me up a trail from the parking lot. the only light we had was his flashlight from his phone.

as we walked up what felt like a hill. he tells me, "i need you to close your eyes."

i scoffed, "then i definitely can't see shit." i told him and i heard his sweet laugh.

"just do it." he says.

i sigh and do what he says. i hear him go behind me and puts his hands on my shoulders. "don't peek." he says.

i laughed and started to walk. he lead me up the trail more before we stopped. i felt a breeze hit my skin, i should've put on sweats before i left instead of wearing shorts.

(i know i said she was wearing underwear but i just changed it, because why would she go out in her underwear?)

"jesus joey, it's cold." i told him as he let go of my shoulders.

i heard him laugh again before he speaks. "open you eyes."

i open my eyes to the whole city. we were on a cliff looking out on the city. i parted my jaw to how pretty it was.

i looked at joey, i was speechless, "joey this is..beautiful."

he comes up to me and wraps his arms around my waist, looking into my eyes. that's when i saw that he was actually in love with me, the love in his eyes.

"i want you to remember this moment forever. i want us to remember." he says as i saw that sparkle in his eyes when he looks at me.

"i love you joey." i told him, and i mean it.

"i love you more, cross."

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just btw, anna is mixed with black and white. she has hazel eyes with freckles on her cheeks and on her nose. she kinda thick too but also has really curly hair.

just incase y'all were wondering 😉