lungs

part 24

anna's pov

i can believe it, jacob is gay. the jacob sartorius is gay.

it all comes together now, no wonder why he never really talked about girls like he was interested in them.

and then his friends asked me if i was dating joey because he probably wanted to know.

"i have one more question." he said.

"okay." i said.

"are you and joey dating?" he asked, with hesitation.

i looked down.

he looks at me and smiles, "god i love you." he said, playfully shaking his head.

i took a deep breath, "i don't know.

he probably got jeremy to ask me and then he wanted zach to ask too.

wait, what if zach is low key gay? and then, they would, like, date. oh. my. god. they would make such a cute couple.

ew, now i sound like those girls who are boy crazy and ship everyone together. like they'll see a dog and a cat and be like "omg they make such a cute couple"

ew, no, gross.

wait.

joey likes me.

i mean, i'm not really surprised because of the fact that he kisses me, hugs me, tells me in beautiful, puts his hands on my thighs, and then sneaks into my room late at night and give me chocolates with a rose.

and i kinda feel the same, wait not kinda, i do.

everything i do and see reminds me of him. and those teen magazines that i read when i was in the hospital said that if everything reminds you of someone, you like them. so if i put all the facts together, i like joey.

i look out the window as i'm on the bus and see a pebble laying on the road when we get to a stop light.

joey likes to kick the pebbles on the ground when we walk together to the bus stop.

yep, i like him.

"anna." jacob said, snapping his fingers as he got me out of my thoughts. "earth to anna." he waved his hands in front of my face.

"huh? what?" i look from the window and look at him, trying to remember what he was talking about. but i can't.

he palmed his forehead and playfully groans, "weren't you even listening to what i was saying?"

i give him a cheesy smile as i looked at him and realized that he was sitting in joeys seat.

when joey comes back, jacob's sitting behind me.

"what were you saying?" i asked because he already knew i wasn't even paying attention.

he playfully rolled his eyes and shook his head. "you're so weird, anna."

+

"hand me the glue stick, jeremy." i told him, but jacob reaches over the ground and gives it to me before jeremy did.

"thank you." i said, taking the glue stick out of his hands.

i convinced mrs. smith if jacob could work with jeremy and i because he didn't have a partner yesterday. obviously, she said yes so now i'm partners with jeremy and jacob to work on this poster that's due tomorrow.

"no color that yellow." jeremy said to jacob.

"nah i'm coloring it blue." he said, grabbing the blue marker.

jeremy picked up the yellow marker and pointed it towards jacob, hoping that he would take it. "jacob do yellow." he said.

jacob took the cap off of the blue. "well i'm doing blue." he said, about to color on the poster.

i looked at the poster to see if either of them is right with their color choices. i squinted my eyes and tilted my head so i could make an opinion about what color it should be.

"what about purple?" i asked, not agreeing with neither of them.

they tilted their heads at the same time. jeremy cocked his head at me and nodded. "purple would work i guess." he said.

jacob nods too, agreeing with him for the first time about this stupid poster. "oh yeah it would."

i smile, knowing that i solved the problem. they both picked up the purple markers and started to color on the poster.

ring ring ring

i look over that the corner of the class room and see that phone on the wall buzzing as it rings.

that feeling in my gut comes to me as if the phone is ringing about me and i did something wrong, or i'm in trouble.

mrs. smith gets up from her desk and goes to the phone. my heart picks up a paste as i go through the things in my head that i've done to make the call about me.

mrs. smith looks at me and nods, or maybe she's looking at someone behind me.

"okay, i'll send her down." i hear her say faintly.

i look behind me, there's a boy behind me that i don't even know. josh, i think that his name or i don't know.

wait she said her, i'm a her, i have a vagina.

she hangs up the phone and makes physical eye contact with me. "anna you're leaving." she said.

i frown and give her a confused look. "who's picking me up?"

"your mom, you have a doctors appointment." she said, and as my single body part froze as if i was in a freezer and i'm frozen.

jacob and jeremy knew why i was leaving so i said my goodbyes and got up and got my stuff.

this can't be good