lungs

part 40

(hey guys. sorry that i've been stalling, i couldn't update for you guys bc i didn't have my phone. but i'm back!)

"so your family is gone huh?" joey asked as we were walking down to the bus stop. it's our last day before winter break. and yes, joey, my family is gone, and has been for two days. and also yes, they're not going to be here for christmas.

"yeah." i said looking down and putting my hands in my pocket of joeys sweatshirt that i'm wearing. i took a big sigh and looked back up at him, "i just miss them, you know."

he wraps his arm around my shoulder and pulls me close to his chest. a whole heat wave takes over my body then goes down my back as i'm against his chest. "i'm sorry cross." he says, "i just want to you to that you always have me to go to, okay? i just wish i could do at least...something."

now he's making it sound like someone from my family died and he's leaving a voice mail because i didn't pick up the phone. even though it feels like someone died, nobody did. everyone is alive and well. in fact, they're alive and well live miles and miles away. my family is miles and miles away.

"what are you doing for christmas since it's in a whole week?" joey asked, changing the subject because he knew that talking about my family wasn't the best idea.

"nothing probably, "i said, "i don't think my mom wants to do anything."

he takes his arm off of my shoulders as we approached the bus stop. we stand there and wait.

"i know a few things we could do." he says, wiggling his eye brows and smirking.

no, i don't think i'm ready for that. not yet.

"like what?" i asked with a smart tone, and also seeing my breath go into mist from the cold weather of december.

"sit down, cuddle, get some hot cocoa and blankets, while watching christmas movies." he says with a dorky smile.

i saw the bus coming our way. "where do you get this stuff?" i asked him," like, the sneaking into window with chocolates and roses, the sweatshirt giving, and basically the little things that boyfriends would never do." i say.

the bus stopped and opened the door for us to get on. at this moment, i realized that jacob isn't here. i mean, he could probably just be sleeping.

we sat down in our normal seats, i sat near the window while he sat on the outside.

"a magician never reveals his secrets." joey says as he sits back in his seat from getting situated with his things.

i scoffed, "oh come on!" i say, "it has to be something. no one came come up with things like that."

he puts his hood over his head, "i may or may not have read my little sisters teen magazines once or twice." he says.

teen magazines. as in; the things i read when i was in the hospital when my lung collapsed. and for me to fantasize to have a boyfriend, when at the time i didn't, and i knew that i wouldn't. but then i met kyle, and things but okay but not great. but then there was joey. joey birlem.

my joey birlem

"i used to read those all the time." i said.

when i mean all the time, i mean all the time. who would have i texted besides mckenna? which, by the way, hasn't talked to me ever since like the day or so after i moved here to new york. and is also replaced by jacob because jacob is a wonderful best friend.

and no, im not trying to be petty and call mckenna a "fake" friend. i'm just saying that i miss her and i wish we could talk more.

"oh my god. sis same!" joey says with a high squeaky voice. i'm surprised he did that, i didn't think he would say that.

ew, no. he's not saying that ever again.

"joey you're honestly canceled. like you just canceled yourself by saying the word 'sis'." i told him.

"ouuu." he mocks, "what do you want me to do then? get a tattoo on my forehead that says canceled?" he asked.

i playfully rolled my eyes at his sarcasm. "even if you got a tattoo no one would see it because you have hair covering your whole forehead." i said touching his hair and moving it up to see his forehead. also knocking down his hood.

he parted his jaw." shut up cross." he laughed. "this hair of mine gets the lad- i mean it gets you. you know, uh, your full attention on...me. you know."

i titled my head back and made a straight face, while crossing my arms. "you're canceled, birlem." i whisper.

he took a deep breath and grabbed onto the seat in front of him. he stood up and looked around the bus. "i'm canceled!" he yelled, making everyone's heads turn.

i palmed my forehead and shook it at the same time. then i grabbed his arm and pull him back down to the seat. "shut up!" i whisper yelled. "you're going to make a scene." it's not really like he already has though.

"what?" he asked." i just want everyone to know that i'm canceled!" he yelled the "i'm canceled" loud again, making him look like a idiot, well a cute one.

"oh my god joey!" i said giggled.

"im can-" before he could yell "i'm canceled" anymore, i took the sides of his face and smashed my lips against his, making it a long and wet kiss. i think i could hear seniors oohing and ahhing in the back.

he pulls away from the kiss and looks at me in the eyes. "that was so fucking hot." he whispers.

i low key blushed but also playfully rolled my eyes, "shut up, you ass wipe." i said.