lungs

part 93

i shook my head in denial with a little chuckle. "no, theres no way."

haillie looked at me with a serious look. "do you want to find out for yourself?" she asked me.

i shrugged. "i-idont know." I say.

she took my hand and started to walk out of the bathroom. "come on, we're gonna check."

we went downstairs to hear the loud music again. i started to get anxiety as i approached jacob.

what if i am pregnant? he would know that it isnt his. we havent been dating for long. would he break up with me?

"jacob ." haillie says as i was behind her. "i'm gonna take anna home, she isnt feeling well."

jacob nodded and softly smiled at me. "be safe, okay?" he said to me.

i nodded as well and turned around, soon to walk out the door with haillie by my side.

we walked out of the house and went to haillies car. my hands were shaking as i put my seatbelt on.

haillie grabbed my hand and looked at me in the eyes. "everything will be okay." she said to me. "no matter what happens, i will help you."

i felt my eyes to getting watery as i was on the verge of crying out of fear. "i don't want my life to fall apart."

she wrapped her arms around me and rubbed my back. "it won't fall apart." she said.

hot tears ran down my cheeks as i was wrapped in her arms. "i mean look at mckenna! she got kicked out of her house and my house, what if i get worse!?"

she put her hand on the back of my head while my head was on her shoulder. "i will be with you every step of the way." she whispers.

i just need one person right now holding me and telling me everything will be okay, and that's joey. this isn't the same as if joey was here.

joey always knew what to do, especially in this situation. if i am pregnant, he will be the child of the baby and he won't be here. he never even told me where he was going.

i pull away from the hug and wipe my cheeks, brushing away the tears. "thank you, haillie, really. i never really had a girl best friend until i met you."

she smiled and patted my back as we sat there. "you're welcome." she says, starting up the car. " and i think you—we had too much of boys for the past months."

i chuckled and agreed with her. "definitely "

she pulled away from the house and started to drive away from the party house. "how about some music, just to set the mood." she says, turning on the radio.

the song "señorita" came on the radio by camilla cabelo and shawn mendes.

"aren't shawn and camilla dating?" she asked as she drove.

i chuckled and shook my head. "i just think they're doing it for fun to mess with everyone."

"so if we were like famous or whatever and we decided to make a music video to "mess with people" would you let me touch you like shawn touched her?" asked haillie.

"i mean, if it's just for the video then yeah." i said, looking out the window.

"what if i was a guy?" she asked.

"then that would be different. i wouldnt want one of my guy friends touching me like that unless we were dating." i said, getting goose bumps as i thought of it.

"exactly." she laughed. "if you feel like that then she would too. so, therefore, they are dating."

"i never saw it like that." i say.

we eventually got to the drug store to get the pregnancy test. i took a big breath as i got out of the car.

we met each other at the front of the car and patted my back. "it's gonna be okay." she said to me.

we went inside and went to the isle where the pregnancy tests were. my hands were shaking even more as i picked it up and looked at it in my hands.

"you can use it and then we'll pay for it after." she says as we walked to the bathroom. "i'll be right here."

i nodded and went inside the bathroom. i opened the pregnancy box and took out a test.

i looked at myself in the mirror and took another deep breath before my life comes crashing down.

"this is it." i said to myself, almost a whisper.

i sat then sat on the toilet and began peeing on the test. after i was done peeing, i laid the test on the sink and went back out.

"i'm done." i said to her.

i don't want to do this, i don't want to be here, i don't want this happening. i grabbed haillies arm and looked at her. "i'm scared."

"it will be okay." she says, "remember, we're in this together."

i nodded and handed the test to her. "i don't want to see it." i say.

"do you want me to tell you if it's-" i cut her off before she could say it.

"yeah." i say. i crossed my arms and started to pace back and forth in the bathroom.

she suddenly gasped and covered her mouth with the hand that wasn't holding the test.

"what?" i asked her. "what's wrong."

she looked at me and smiled, "you're.."

"i'm what?" i say. "tell me."

"you're pregnant!"

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