lungs

part 29

knock knock

it's joey, again. who else would be at my window?

i get up from bed and see him holding to the tree but this time not with a rose and a a box of chocolates, which is the usual.

i open the window, "yes birlem?" i asked, hoping that he gets the idea because i called him by his last name.

"let me in anna."he commands. at that moment, i knew something was wrong. he never calls me by my first name, and when he does he's serious.

i let him in and and he stands in my room brushing his knees off, "look." he paused, with a long pause, "i don't wanna be with you anymore." he said, as if he actually meant it.

i furrowed my eyebrows, "w- what? why?" i said.

"because you're so ugly, cross. i was right when i picked lexi." he says.

i parted my jaw, "that the only reason, huh?" i asked, "because i'm so ugly." i air quoted.

he nodded, "and not for nothing, that scar is even worse." he says.

i look down and try to hold back my tears, "get out, joseph." i said

he pushes my shoulders, nudging me a little to make he almost fall back. this has to be a dream right?

he came close to me as fear took over me. "joey." i whispered.

at that moment, he punched me in the face. i fell to the ground and looked up at him, he had a big smirk on his face.

soon, he started to kick me in my gut. i could taste blood in my mouth as it was starting to come out.

i feel my lung start hurting as i can't breath. the only thing i can hear now is joeys laughter as he kicks me.

"please!" i cried, "stop!"

i sit up in my bed. i look at my body as it's covered with sweat as i'm trying to catch my breath.

i look at the window, joey isn't there.i grab my phone and look at the time 1:02am.

should i text joey? no, yes?

"can you come over?" i texted.

the person i need right now is him. that dream really got me hard. would joey ever hurt me like that?

"be there in two." he replied.

i sighed and put my phone back on my night stand. i run my hands through my hair and look at that stupid pill bottle.  i pick it up and look at it.

wait

it was the hallucination side effect, except it was a dream.

knock knock

i hesitated but then up from my bed,this is the same way my dream started.

i go up to the window and look at him hanging onto the tree. i smiled and opened the door. "yes birlem." i said, trying to play it cool that weather or not i should've thought about this.

"let me in anna." he laughed.i swallowed hard as i heard him say those words.

i helped him climb in and he stood there in the middle of my room, just like my dream.

"are you okay?" he asked, no joey i'm not okay. in fact when am i ever okay?

"yeah i'm fine. i was just lonely and wanted to see you." i said.

i laid i my bed and he got next to me in it, of course taking off his shoes.

we sat there staring up at the ceiling in silence. but almost like a good silence, not those awkward kinds.

next thing i know it, he wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me onto his chest.

we never been this close before, i mean we kissed and we hugged, but not this close.

"cross." i hear him whisper as i matched our breathing patterns.

"hm."

"i know that we started dating in all but i just wanna tell you that, um.." he trails off.

"that you what?"

"um." he paused as i frowned, what if this is gonna be like my dream. "what joey?" i asked.

"i love you." he whispers.

my whole body froze, and i didn't say a word except, "dido"

he smiled a little as i looked up at him.

isn't it kind of early to say i love you though? like we met a month ago and then just three days ago we started dating. i mean i love him but aren't you supposed to say the L word when you're like in love?

he isn't in love with me right? no, he can't. you can't fall in love with someone under a short amount of time. well, there is love at first sight.

but

he can't be

is he?

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