lungs

part 89

"how do you feel about joey being back?" asked jacob through the phone on facetime. it was 12 am and I'm still on the phone with him after four hours.

im starting to fall asleep and he is too, i guess you can say were falling asleep on facetime with each other.

i yawned and rubbed my eyes. " nothing, hes just my ex." i lie.

a ex that i still love.

"so you're over him?" he asked.

"yup." nope.

"okay, good night." he says, making me confused.

"wait so are you hanging up?" i asked him, confused.

"no, im going to bed on face time silly." he says chuckling. i heard him muffle around in his bed beofre I hear him take a big sigh. "good night, anna." He says.

i get situated in my bed and softly smile even tho he cant see me. "night Jacob."

i closed my eyes and let sleep take over me. falling asleep, i heard something knock at my window.

this better not be joey, it's literally almost 1am. i put myself on mute so i dont wake up jacob by getting out of bed.

i put on a sweatshirt and went up to the window to see joey there with a backpack on his back.

"joey what are you doing here?" i whispered, so i won't wake anyone up.

"let me in." he says, holding out a hand for me to grab.

i grabbed his hand and pulled him inside. he brushed himself off and looked around the room before looking at me. "so, did you do it?" he asked, taking off his backpack.

i sat down on my bed and crossed my legs. "do what?"

"break up with sartorius." he says, not letting go of the habit of calling people by their last names.

i looked at the black screen on my phone, knowing that i'm still on facetime with jacob but just muted. "yeah." i lie. "did you break up with that zoe girl?"

"easy peasy lemon squeezey." she says, crossing his arms and smiling.

i nodded and grabbed my phone. tapping on the screen to show the icon to hang up, i tapped the red "x" to end the call.

"who were you on facetime with?" asked joey out of curiosity.

"oh." think. think. think. "you know, haillie." i lied, again.

he nodded and looked at a picture on my wall of the two of us. it was when we first started dating and we were walking home from the bus stop.

fashback

let me take a picture of you for my lock screen." he says smiling from ear to ear, while pulling up the camera on his phone.

"why?" i asked.

"because you're my girlfriend." he says.

girlfriend

i look down and tuck my hair behind my ear, while blushing and shaking my head at the same time.

"please?" he begged.

i groan, "fine, but not my face. i look like i was just ran over by a uhaul truck."

"then what? your ass? because i would be gl-" he says but i cut him off.

"no dumbass, take a picture of us holding hands" i said, pointing to his hand as we walked.

"oh," he chuckled." i think that's better than your ass, even though your ass is-"

i cut him off again by taking his hand, "just take the picture, birlem." i said, laughing.

he took the picture and then showed it to me. "is that okay?" he asked.

i nodded, "it's perfect."

flashback over

he took it off the wall and looked at it in his hands, smiling while looking down at it. "what are you waiting for?" joey asked out of the blue.

"what?" i say, confused.

"this is our chance, anna! we can leave right now." he says, putting the picture on my dresser.

"do you actually want to do this? i mean why can't we just stay here." i asked.

he went in my closet and got out a back pack. he took it out and threw it to me on the the bed. "pack, cross. this is it!" he says.

"joey."

"we can leave this shit hole and start over. brand new lives baby!"

"joey!" i say, snapping him back. "why do you want to do this?"

he sighs and sits on the end of the bed, while running his hands through his hair. "i don't want to live here, anna. i don't want to live anywhere unless it's with you." he says, making my heart slipping a beat.

"i don't want to go to florida and i don't want to live here. i want to leave and be with you." he adds.

i went up to him and sat next to him on the end of the bed, rubbing his back. "i love you joey." i say, meaning every word. "with all my heart, even words can't describe it."

he looks at me in the eyes, connecting the chemistry between us. i saw the way his pupils dilated as he looked at me with his hazel eyes.

"i love you more." he whispers, not breaking eye contact, before smashing his lips against me.

he caresses my cheek, deepening the kiss. with one hand on my waist, he gently pushes onto the bed.

"will you run away with me, cross?" he asked, whispering in the kiss.

"i'll run away with you, birlem."

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i'm not comfortable writing dirty scenes in my books, it's just not my style. but if you were wondering, they do "it" here, which is important later on in the book.

also, go read my new rant book. i said some  things about my ex that i didn't tell you guys;)