Bi-stressed

CHAPTER 2

 
It's pitch black in here, darkness engulfed. Suddenly I hear sobs which turn into loud cries. Then I see a young girl just like me, her long curls sweeping the ground as she walks on a lonely road which has no street lights on and from no where a truck runs over her...

When I awake, I hear them talking about me having a stomach wash. I spew all over the place and on Louis' hand. A long tube is put down my nostrils, through my oesophagus and into my stomach, making me shiver as the cold liquid passes in me through the conduit. I quiver and whine as the conduit is put down my gullet. I've already suffered alot mentally and emotionally, I can't take it physically now. As I weep, I feel Zac's hand in mine. I know it's him, I could feel him. When I open my eyes he's right at the side of me, holding my hand tight. When I look up at him, he's crying.
Fuck I've never seen him cry before. I can tell he wants to slap me hard in the face right now but he stays calm.

"What made you take this big step?" Halsey asks me.

I don't answer and shut my eyes as tears roll down.

"It's because of that Luna! She's so dramatic, gosh. She fights with her continuously on every damn thing and hurts her repeatedly which led her to do this!  I'm not going to leave her I swear!" Zac goes berserk.

"I'm going to go her house tomorrow and give her good. This is not the first time, they keep having fights and I want to know what it was about this time which made her take such a big step!"
Halsey rants.

"Just calm down you'll both for now. We'll talk to Lexi first. Let's see what she has to say." Aunt Steph says.

I stew while my stomach is being pumped, two big needles are injected in the veins of my left arm and I hold onto Zac's hand holding it even tighter than before as the needles are poked in. The nurse then injectes the medicine in the IV on the drip stand and it flows into my veins at short intervals. From the emergency I'm taken to a ward where all such kind of cases are planted.

After about 30 minutes I'm in perception. Everyone crowded around me, ask how I'm feeling now. I'm much better but this conduit which is in my gullet hurts. I beg them to take it out and I'm relieved when it's out.

Halsey finally asks, "What made you do this?"

I have no words, all I do is look down to the floor with guilt. I know I did a very wrong thing and my dad must be extremely angry and would probably never forgive me and so my family and Zac. Oh and Luna, I want her to know what I'm going through right now but she'll probably never know because after this I know I'm never gonna speak to her even though I'll have to face her at school.
The most terrible part is to see her each day in school but not going near her or not even talking to her. She was my best friend and I can't stay without talking to her. I wish she never told me she had feelings for me. We could be the same like before, no awkwardness, no hesitations, no useless fights, nothing. We could be normal best friends. Oh and about friends, I forgot we both hang out in the same group. I don't even know how I'm going to hang out with them when she's around. I just can't meet her eyes. They are so attractive that I'll end up falling into them....

"Where are you lost dear?" Aunt Steph asks.

"Uh umm nowhere I- I uh" she cuts me off by saying," It's okay, you rest."

"How much time is left for the drip to finish?" my mom asks the doctor.

"Just 30 more minutes!" he replies.

"Huh?  30 more minutes?  It's not even going in. This will take forever to finish. I'm fine I guess. Just tell them to let me go home please." I say.

"No your stomach is empty, you need the drip." my mom says.

"No but... I'm saying I'm fine..."

She cuts me off," I said you need the drip means you need it. No more arguing!"

I sigh in defeat.

The rest of the 30 minutes is spent in jokes. I've forgotten about everything and I feel much better as I laugh my ass out at their jokes. The doctor then arrives and asks me how I'm doing and I reply with an ok. He then tries to make a conversation with me.

"I wonder why would such a young girl do this? You have a while life ahead."

I smile not knowing what to answer.

"She was just stressed out with her exams and was worried about her grade." Aunt Steph answers for me.

"Yeah, she was scared that her mom would yell and beat her ass out when she comes to know about her results so she took this step." Louis lies.

"Oh I see,  what do you want to become when you grow up?' the doctor asks me.

"A doctor like you." I reply.

" Oh that's great. Now listen to me, you don't need to stress out on such a small thing, imagine when you'll have to operate on someone. I know it's not that easy, even I used to fail and hide my results from my parents and later when they found out I got a good thrashing from my dad but see me now. I was successful in it. You shouldn't get demotivated by anyone or anything. There will come a time when you'll pass through it and be successful. So have faith in yourself and study hard. I wish you all the best!" With this he gives me a friendly smile and leaves.

"Thank you so much!" This is exactly what I needed, a good motivation and now I feel so much better.

I am now discharged and we our own our way home. Zac gives me a tight hug and tells me that he'll come over tomorrow. On our way home, we stop to have some fresh juice. I stay the night at Aunt Steph's house because I don't have the guts to see the state of my bathroom. We left in that state and I don't even want to think about whatever happened earlier.

When we reach Aunt Steph's house, it's 2 am already. Halsey helps me change since I'm not in a state to stand up straight. She gives a tight hug and leads me to the bedroom.

For the first 5 minutes, I'm trying to think about the dream I had earlier but my brain isn't functioning right now so I give up and soon I'm fast asleep.