Bi-stressed

CHAPTER 5

An ambrosial breakfast was prepared by Aunt Steph. Egg with bacon and sausages were delectable. We all enjoyed the breakfast. My sense of taste has improved and my taste buds are much better now. After breakfast I help Halsey wash the plates and dishes while Aunt Steph cleans the house. After the work is finished, we finally sit down to watch a movie.

We watch A Dog's Purpose and I feel wretched every time a dog dies. I'm literally shedding tears. The movie was quite overwhelming and heartbreaking.
I'm already so heartbroken and now this movie exacerbates.

The whole day elapses and Zac drops me home in the evening. Today flew by and I didn't even come to know when evening arrived. We have dinner and soon night falls. Zac gives me a last hug and good bye before leaving. My mom gives me a gentle kiss on the forehead and we head to bed.

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I hurry down the stairs and to my van, I'm on my way to school when suddenly the van stops in the middle of the road. I pop my head out of the window and peer at a crowd. All I can see is a pool of blood. I get down and make my way to the front of the crowd.  My eyes widen in shock to see Luna bloodstained.

I hypnic jerk, snivelling and heart pounding. Is Luna even fine? I don't think so she is, maybe that's why I'm seeing such dreams. I think I should just call her and ask if she's okay. No I can't, I have to be strong and move on. I'm the one who ended it because of her being dramatic and now I can't go back to her. I'm so sick and tired of running behind her every time and being the one to say sorry all the time. I steer clear my thoughts and try to sleep...

The alarm buzzes at 6:30 and I snooze it. After about 5 minutes my mom comes to wake me up. I take a shower and dress up for school. After breakfast I hurry down the stairs, thinking about the dream I miss a step and nearly fall down but I catch hold of the banister. On my way to school I'm hoping my dream doesn't come true. Shit, I'm going to be facing her today. I can't speak to her. What if she comes up to me? What will I say to her? Who am I going to be with during recess? I feel the anxiety building up as I head closer to school.

As I reach school, I first go to the Chapel. After I finish praying there and asking for forgiveness for what u did I go to the spot where we all sit. I sit down waiting for someone. I'm always the first one in school anyways. Kim comes and gives me a hug. She asks me why I didn't come to school the day before yesterday and I couldn't lie but tell her the truth. After telling her she gives me a hug instead of a slap I had expected.

"I feel like slapping you!" she yells.

"I know. I know I shouldn't have done that!" I reply with guilt.

"You tried killing yourself for a girl who came into your life and made it shit?"

"She was my best friend! You know how close we were and I can't live without her!" I sob.

" I know but after all she did to you, you still run behind her?"

"I cant help it."

"You have to be strong and forget about her. She's messed up your life enough and made it hell. You have to move on! She's not your only best friend. I'm there for you always."

"Thanks for being there for me!" I hug her.

"I wish I knew about it and could come to visit." she says while hugging me.

"It's okay." I give her a soft smile.

One by one, our group members arrive but none of them even bother to ask why I didn't come to school the day before yesterday. Flashbacks or my dream and images of Luna lying in a pool of blood play in my head and as I try to avoid them I see an actual image of Luna walking towards me more like towards us. She looks pathetic, pale in the face and dark circles underlined her eyes. She approaches us and gives everyone a warm smile as usual except me. I look away just to avoid making an eye contact. We ignore each other the whole time. I feel uncomfortable sitting around with them for the first time. No one talks to me. They all focused on her and what she is speaking about. I'm not involved in any of the conversation. Kim notices me and offers me to go for a walk with her.  I accept the offer and get going with her as I stand up I feel her eyes on me. I know she's looking at me but avoid looking at her. We talk about random stuff and soon the bell rings. We head to class and I'm so thankful we have no classes together.

As I enter in class, Lyra comes running towards me and gives me a tight hug followed by Tessa and Celine.  I'm intrigued by their multifarious questions. I then tell them what happened and I get a slap by Celine. I never expected that from but from Lyra. I feel how annoyed they are at hearing this.

"You're so dumb. You tried to fuck up your entire life just for that Luna!" Celine yells at me.

"Exactly! You tried to ruin your entire future for her!" Lyra shouts.

"I know, I regret." I say with guilt.

"Can you'll stop yelling at her!  She's already been through enough and now you'll are inserting more."

"Okay relax. It's fine. I'm glad your here standing infront of us. I couldn't stand a funeral now."  Lyra teases and tries to lighten up the air.

I couldn't concentrate in my biology class, my mind keeps thinking about those dreams. I try avoiding it and glance at the clock. Its going to take forever to end. My eyes watch the clock constantly, waiting for class to end. My anxiety builds up again at the thought of facing Luna.

The bell rings and Kim is already waiting outside class for me. We take our lunch and head to a place where there's no one. We have a normal conversation and head back to class when the bell rings. Chemistry is such a boring subject, I hate it so much. I almost fell asleep in class waiting for it to end. When the bell rings I give Lyra a hug and Kim accompanies me to the van...