Bi-stressed

CHAPTER 17

When I reach home after an hour stuck in traffic, I find Zac already there.

"How was your trip?" He asks.

"It's was nice."

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah I'm absolutely fine."

"You don't look, what's wrong?"

"Nothing." I force a smile.

"Okay." He returns me a smile.

"I'm going to wish Erica." I say and hurry towards the house.

Erica is Elaine's sister. We're good friends, we were really close during the summer but time changes people. I was invited for her birthday though but couldn't make it so I promised to go over and wish her at least.

When I'm almost down, I see her going in the car. I quickly run and wish her. In the car is Elaine, Sean, and Hardin. I can sense Hardin's eyes on me and I realize what state I'm in after the trip.

Pale in the face, red eyes and hair all messed up. Who cares anyways? Hardin and me are in really good terms now and it's been one year since I'm over him. We're nothing more than just friends.

"Where are you'll off to?" I ask with a smile.

"Carnivals."

"Oh I see."

It feels a lot like Christmas. The cold weather and the bright lights. It's so beautiful.

I go back up and find Zac waiting on the steps. He pulls me close to him and leans in to kiss me. Something makes me push him away.

"No, uh. Not here." I say looking all confused.

"Why?  We've been doing it here before I was allowed in the house."

"Not right now, please."

"What's wrong with you? You're being different."

"No I'm fine." I give him a smile and take hold of his hand, leading him towards the house.

I go in for a shower.

This isn't fair to Zac. I should discuss with him about my feelings. I should tell him that Luna spoke to me. I shouldn't just shove him out and act different. It's going to be one year for us in a few days.

After a shower, I dress up in my cute night suit and sit at the side of him to watch television. Halsey and Louis are gone out and Aunt Steph is sleeping. I pick up the phone to call my mom but she doesn't answer. She's prolly busy with her husband.

"She's not picking up." I tell Zac in a disheartened tone of voice.

"Come here." He grips me by my waist, pulling me closer to him, leaving no space between us.

"Yeah?" I look up at him.

"You're cute."

"I'm not." I pout.

"You are. You are my cutie."

I pout again.

"I love you." He says making an eye contact.

I give him a warm smile not answering back.

"I love you." He repeats his words.

"I, uh. I love you too." I can't find any other words. I just cant ignore him. I have to talk to him about Luna and clear up my mind.

"Too?" He frowns.

"What?"

"It's always more, if you have forgotten."

"I love you more." I tell him trying not to make eye contact. I do mean it but I have slight feelings for Luna as well and I have to tell him as soon as possible not right now but soon.

"Luna spoke to me today." My heart is racing as I tell him.

"What did she say?" His voice is calmer than I expected.

"Nothing much. Just here and there."

After telling him about my trip, I soon fall asleep in his arms.

We're getting married.

I'm the bride and at the side is another bride. Luna? She's getting married to who?  Zac is walking up towards me. No he's walking up towards Luna. What the hell?

"What the hell?" I hypnic jerk.

"Are you okay?" Zac asks me rubbing his eyes.

"Yeah."

"You sure?" His voice filled with concern.

"Mmm, hmm."

"It's past 12?"

"Yeah."

"Why are you here so late?"

"You fell of to sleep in my arms. I couldn't disturb you. I was just staring at this peaceful face of yours and the the little frowns that kept coming while you were asleep and then suddenly you just..."

"Uh, it was nothing. Just a weird dream."

"You okay?"

"Yeah baby. I'm fine."

He leans in to kiss but this time I don't move away. I kiss his plump lips, soft and juicy as ever. The kiss is not too long. I pull away immediately after two strokes of his tongue.

This kiss felt different this time, I don't why. Maybe because my mind was on Luna so I couldn't focus. I do know this much that my love for him will never die and my love for her will never succeed because we are not meant for each other.

Loving her has consequences...