Bi-stressed

CHAPTER 25

These were the words I was dying to hear.

Beautiful.

Her voice.

I could feel her eyes on me continuously  but I tried to ignore making eye contact.
At last I stare deep into her eyes and give her a smile. She smiles back and moves out of the classroom.

Her smile.

Those dimples.

Without realizing I laugh softly and smile to myself and when I turn around, Lyra and Tessa are just staring at me and smiling.

"When did that happen?" Lyra asks.

"What?"

"When did you'll start speaking again."

Fuck. 

I forgot to mention about our conversation and meet up. She's going to be upset that I didn't tell her.

"Monday." Tessa tells her.

"Sunday night."

"Oh. How come I didn't know about this."

"I'm sorry, I forgot to tell you. I actually kept our friendship private. No one in the group knows yet, not even Kim."

"It's okay. You don't need to apologize."

"What did she whisper in your ear by the way?" Tessa asks, smirking at me.

"Nothing."

They both stare at me, frowning.

"I look beautiful."

"What?"

"That's what she said."

"Oh." They say concurrently and smirking at each other.

They certainly know she's bisexual for me but they don't know I have feelings too.

I myself have no idea about my feelings towards her. It's so confusing.

I want her as a best friend only.

Or maybe as a girl friend or more than that.

Am I bisexual? Oof I don't understand what's with my heart.

I want Zac. I certainly want him in my future.

I'm fucking bi stressed!!!

The whole day elapses pretty fast. It was a good day.

I loved it when I caught her staring at me through the crowded ground as I danced.

I love the way her smile broadens when our eyes meet.

I just hate when she's close to Laura and Ruby. Clicking pictures with them hurt me a bit.

We clicked a group picture though but I craved for a picture with her alone but I had to keep calm my emotions. Our friendship isn't public anymore and I never want it to be ever, unless we date but we're never going to for sure.

We have many shippers and I kind of like that but we needed to protect our self respect. For that reason, not together in public unless we really are a couple.

We'll never be.

We're not meant for each other. I remind myself.

I belong to Zac.

When I reach home, I change into my pajamas and take a nap.

"I love Luna."

"What?" Zac's voice is harsh and tears have already filled his eyes.