Bi-stressed

CHAPTER 50

It's pitch black out here. Suddenly a beam of yellow light shines dimly towards the steps going up, which makes two shadows visible.
The shadows are of two curly haired girls. Looks like they're arguing. Well, sounds like they're arguing.

"Why do you do this to me? Why do you lead me on and then just leave me hanging? Why?" The girl yells.

"I'm sorry but I just can't help it. I just can't do this anymore." The other sobs.

"Then why? Knowing we can't, why do you do it anyways Lexi?" She cries.

Did I just hear my name? What the fuck.

"Because I fucking love you Luna, and I want to... I want you so bad, I forget sometimes that I even have a boyfriend!" She yells.

"If you love me so much then you need to fucking choose. You need to choose whether you want me or him?"

"I can't choose. I just can't." She sobs.

Suddenly, there's pin drop silence. No yelling, no sobbing, not a work can be heard until I hear kissing. When I look towards them, I see the shadow of the two girls kissing.

"Lexi! Lexi! Alexia!" I hear Lyra calling out my name.

"Here!" I shout, waving out my hand.

"We were searching for you everywhere. When the hell did you disappear? And why are you sitting here in the dark? Is everything okay? Are you alrig-"

"I don't know Lyra. I don't know anything. I don't even know if I'm okay or not. I don't know why this is happening."

"What is happening? Can you please tell me what's wrong?"

"Luna."

"Again?" She sighs. "Tell me."

"Luna is just so, I don't know. I think I'm falling in love with her."

"You what?"

"I think I'm bisexual."

"What makes you think that?"

"I'm confused. I want her but Zac. Like I just don't know in what way I want her. As a friend or more than that. I don't know."

"Tell me how you feel about her."

"I feel alot. I can't explain it to you. She makes me so happy and I feel so comfortable with her. Everytime we part, something makes me want her and brings me back to her. We had this deep connection, still do maybe. Whatever happened with her, happened to me, whatever she felt, I felt. Whatever I thought, she thought the exact thing. We were that connected. We even had this bracelet which we named Lena, combining our names, Lexi and Luna. We were extremely close. After I lost that bracelet, I started noticing that our connection was turning weak. When I started dating Zac, things became worst between us.  I just miss the old us so much. Even after everything I love her the same."

"I see, you'll were extremely close, maybe this is the reason you can't stay away from her."

"We were so close and attached."

"Because of your deep rooted connection and attachment with her, you can't stay away and so you end up going back to her everytime even after everything . It's nothing like that. You're not bisexual. You just feel that way because of your connection with her and you'll were very close and attached."

"I've been telling myself this all this while."

"It is this only. Now don't upset yourself instead build your relationship with Zac. You love him don't you?"

"I do love him."

"So then why do you seem so confused between him and Luna?"

"That's the whole thing. I don't know who I actually-"

"Sshh. You love Zac. Yes you also love Luna because she was your best friend and you'll were really close so you just miss her alot and that connection you'll had."

"Hmm, you're right. Now that we aren't close I'm just missing her alot."

"Yeah. Now, cheer up. Come on, let's go dance!"

"I don't feel like."

"Come on!" She grabs my hand and drags me to the dance floor.
From afar I see Laura grinding on Luna. I feel a pang of jealousy. I roll my eyes and dance my ass off with Lyra. I look towards Luna and find her giving me a death stare. I smile to myself and look away. So, if she could let Laura grind on her why can't I twerk with Lyra.

It's about time, the bonfire's over. We walk towards the gate when Melissa and Delilah come towards me and say goodbye. Behind them, stands Luna staring at me with a smile on her face.

Oof not again. Not again Lexi.

Lyra and Celine nudge me at the same time. I look at them, sigh and then smile. Melissa and Delilah give such a pleading smile as if indicating me to just throw my arms around Luna. I look into Luna's eyes and she runs towards me throwing her arms around me. I wrap my arms around her too. At this very moment I feel like our hearts just connected. The emptiness is full again and in this cold, the warmth of her body filled within me. I feel overwhelmed but as a few seconds pass, the guilt in me awakes. I start to feel as if I've betrayed Zac by doing this.
Ugh fuck you Lexi, you should have just pushed her away. That would be a good one. No, being with her at this moment feels like I've craved for this. I throw my arms down and wait for her to lift her head off my shoulder, just then erroneously, her lips touch mine. I pull myself away.

"F-ck"

"Oops. I'm so sorry."

And boom we kinda kissed.

"I personally like to see you'll together." says Ashley, the girl who tried hitting up on me earlier.

"Who doesn't?" Celine smirks.

I reach home and pick up my phone to text Luna. Just then, something stops me and I open Zac's chat.

"Hey. You okay?"

"Heyy. Yeah. Are you okay? Where have you been all day. You've hardly spoken to me." Zac says.

"Oh, I'm okay. You know Lyra was here all day and then at the bonfire so I just couldn't get a chance. Umm, I'm so sorry."

"It's completely okay. Tell me how was it?"

"What?"

"The bonfire, duh."

"Oh the bonfire, uh- well... it was great. Umm- I had a- good  time."

"Why are you so hesitant?"

"Umm I- ? uh no... I'm not"

"Is something wrong."

"Uh- no. No nothing's wrong."

"Are you sure?"

"I gotta tell you something. I know you're gonna be mad at me but you know I don't hide anything from you so like... Umm Luna and me spoke and she hugged me and..."

     *Hangs up*

Okay. Pheww. Shit.

I should have just fucking pushed her away.

Fuck you Lexi. I keep cussing at myself while my call keeps getting declined by Zac. He's overreacting now. I keep my phone aside and try to get some sleep.

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I wake up thinking Zac's good morning message would pop up in my notifications but to my disappointed there's nothing from him. I avoid texting Luna since all of this is too fresh for me to mess up any further. I keep texting and calling Zac all day, but there's no response.

In my notifications, to my surprise I find Hardin's name. A post by _cutelovers is sent by Hardin. What the fuck. I open to see a meme. So much talking on chat Vs awkwardness in reality. 
I thought God knows what, I sigh. I anyways have a random conversation with him until there's a knock on the door.
I run towards the door, thinking it's Zac but to my astonishment I find Luna standing in the door way.