Bi-stressed

CHAPTER 3

My eyes throw wide at around 4 am and flashbacks of my dream starts playing in my head. I wonder why that girl was crying? I don't even know what happened to her after the truck ran over her...  I couldn't make out who she was but she looked familiar, having long curls reminds me of....  Luna, it was Luna! Was she crying because of me?  I really want to speak to her. I want to know if she's ok. What happened after the truck ran over her?  Was she still alive? Multitudinous questions haunt me. I swill down some water and then try to get some sleep, trying to avoid those flashbacks.

The truck speeds up, leaving the body surrounded by blood. Next to the body is a young girl, beating her chest and lamenting over the body...

I hypnagogic jerk, as I feel my heart hammering inside. "What the heck was that?"  I sob. These dreams are just to much. If I sleep again, God knows what I'm gonna see next. I calm myself down and lay down in bed. I can hear the clock ticking and when my eyes move towards it, it's 4:30. Gosh how am I going to pass my time, I can't wait till morning. Flashbacks play again and I try to avoid them. I get hold of my phone and unlock it. As I unlock it, our chat appears in front of my eyes. I don't try to go back but instead read them all over again.

FLASHBACK:
"I TAUGHT YOU PAIN! AHH!!
I FEEL SO FUCKING APPRECIATED!!!" I can hear Luna screaming from the text itself.

"That caption wasn't only for you!" I reply.

"YOU COULD HAVE JUST TOLD ME THAT DIRECTLY I WOULDN'T MIND INSTEAD OF REFERRING IT TO ME IN YOUR CAPTION!"

"What is wrong with you? I told you that it wasn't only for you. It's just a caption,  your making a big deal out of it!"

"HUH, I'M MAKING A BIG DEAL OUT OF IT?"

"Yes you are! That caption wasn't only for you" I repeat. "Zac and you taught me love and pain, Hardin taught me patience and pain."

"OH REALLY? I TAUGHT YOU PAIN HUH?"

"Yes you did!" I tell her. "Why are you being so dramatic?"

"I'M BEING DRAMATIC?"

"Yes. You know what, I'm done. I'm so done with you being dramatic all the time. For little little things you fight with me. You over react on every damn thing. I can't take it anymore!" As I send the text, I feel my heart sinking. I couldn't have said that but she's...

"And you know what, same. Even I'm done with you!" I know she doesn't mean it, she's just angry but I'm really done. I just can't take it anymore more.

"Fine then. I don't want to be friends anymore because of you overreacting and being so dramatic all the time!" Tears roll down as I send the message.

I throw my phone aside and search for my secret diary in my drawer. I open it and write her name down and circle it with red. I write everyone's name who caused me to take this step. I'm actually done. Done with her, done with everyone, done with life!

I go to the bathroom and find the Finus bottle lying there. I take a few sips and fall to the ground

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I switch off my phone and keep it aside. I lay in bed shedding tears. I wish this all never happened. If I didn't post that caption, we wouldn't have fought and I wouldn't have ended this. This is exactly what she wanted. To fight and keep distance from me so her feelings for me could vanish away. I really wish we could go back to normal best friends...

"Lexi get up baby, it's 10 am!" I hear Halsey's voice and awake.

It's 10 am already, I never thought time would pass so fast and I could get some sleep at least. I get out of bed and shower. I feel so dirty since yesterday, covered with vomit. I had to shower properly. At this time we would be having our recess at school. Tears roll down as I think about her. I have to be strong now after being a coward yesterday. I have to try to forget her and move on. I can't believe I did such a thing for... There's a knock on the door.

"Breakfast is ready!" Halsey announces.

"Will be out in a minute!" I reply.

....

As I eat, I feel Halsey's eyes on me. I know she's eager to speak to me. I look up and there she starts.

"Can you please tell me what exactly happened?" She asks.

"Nothing happened, I was just stressed out you know." I reply.

"I know it's about Luna. What happened between you two?" she questions.

"Nothing really big."

"Nothing really small can make you take that big step!" Her voice sharpens.

"She was being dramatic so I told her I'm done with her!"

"Does that mean you were done with life too?"

"Yes maybe."

"Can you tell me all of it?" she pleads.

"Okay, so I posted this caption which says: One taught me love, one taught me patience and one taught me pain.
She thought it was for her and she overreacted and so I said I'm done with her fighting with me for every small thing and I ended our friendship.

"Okay so that was it! You ended it so then why did you try to kill yourself?"

"Because I can't live without her. She was my best friend!'

"It happens, everyone has fights and breakups. Some get back together and some don't. It all depends on will of God. Let me tell you, I had a number of friends in school but now as you see there's no one. Friends are only there for some time. They are not always going to be with you. There are very few who stay, they are called true friends.
You have a life ahead baby, think about Zac. You have to make your career and spend your entire life with him if you'll are still together. Don't do such a stupid thing for friends because they are not going to be with you forever. At some point they'll leave and have their own life!" She gives me a warm smile and waits for a reply.

"I know. I'm never going to think about doing such a thing again."

"Promise?"

"Promise."

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