Bi-stressed

CHAPTER 27

"Look, I don't want to keep things from you. We kissed a second time too."

"When?"

"In school. The day after we spoke through that fake account.
She wanted to meet me but I didn't want anyone knowing so we met in the washroom. We hugged but both of us didn't see it coming." I confess.

"See what coming?"

"The kiss."

Maybe she was aware of it but I wasn't. I shouldn't have done such a thing while dating Zac. I have no idea what made me do that. I'm such a pervert. I didn't think about Zac at that moment and just lead her on it.

"I'm literally sorry for everything. I've made a huge mistake and I'm extremely guilty. Please forgive me."

"I did."

"You really did?"

"Yes. I love you. I'm glad you confessed everything and that I didn't get to hear it from another person but from your own mouth but this shouldn't happening again. You promised me before as well but this is the last time. If you still want her, I'll leave."

"Look, we were best friends for years, really close and connected. It's hard for us to part. I really wish it didn't go this way."

"You're sure you want to choose me?"

"I have no option. I wish to choose both but-"

"I won't mind really!" He cuts me off.

I want them both so bad. I want Luna and my friendship back and I want Zac and my relationship to continue but I have to accept the fact that Luna and me will never just be friends after everything. She'll always want me more and I can't give her more, I can't give her what Zac has already taken. He's felt me in a way no other can and I'm so familiar with his touch that I don't want anyone else. I don't feel the same with Luna which means it's not what I think. Luna and me have something special, it's more than friends but I'm not sexually attracted to her.

My feelings towards her are different.

I don't understand why I'm so attached to her. Kim and Elaine are my best friends too but I don't feel this way with them. Luna is different. Not I'm a sexual way but I don't know. It's confusing the way I feel about her.

"I want you as my future husband. Only you!"

"You're sure?"

"Yes. I'm sorry."

I feel the weight turn light on my chest now and I'm relieved after my confession about Luna to Zac.

After introducing the fake account to Zac, I message Luna.

*"Hey I need to talk to you."*

*"Yes."*

*"I told Zac about us."*

*"What did he say?"*

*"He asked me to choose between him and you."*

Her replies which came in seconds have stopped. I feel pathetic. I shouldn't have spoken to her in the first place. I've hurt her enough and now again. She must be sobbing right now and I can't do anything about it. I don't have the heart to tell her. I can't tell her I chose Zac over her.

*"So?"*

*"I chose Zac."* I feel my heart sinking.

She's going to go through hell right now.

Zac has gone through it.

I have gone through it.

I've put all of us through hell.

What a tragedy all of this is!

*"Okay."*

*"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for breaking you."*

She was so happy that day and now I can only imagine her crying her guts out.

*"It's fine."* I know she's lying.

She's famous for hiding her pain.

I have no words. I can't even console her right now.

*"We won't be speaking often but feel free to wish me for Christmas and New Year."*

How could I be so mean? I just brushed her off! I could have explained everything to her but instead I was so harsh. Knowing it wasn't fine, I did nothing. I didn't speak further.