LOOSING HOPE

THE HEART KNOWS WHAT THE HEART WANTS

Can stood there on the rocks long after Sanem walked away. He knew she overhead his conversation with his father. What she must be thinking right now. He never wanted to hurt her. He liked her. He still didn't remember her, but he wanted to get to know her. He decided he was going back to the farm and finish her book. He wasn't going to stop reading until he finished it. He needed to understand her better. He needed to understand their love. So, he got into his truck and headed back to the farm. Sanem, on the other hand, cried all the way back to her parent's house. She went straight to her room before her parents saw how upset she was. Leyla knocked on her bedroom door and entered. She found Sanem crying. She held her sister until she calmed down. Sanem told her sister of the conversation she overhead between Aziz and Can. She told her Can's memory loss had erased all the feelings he had for her. She asked Leyla what she was going to do. She didn't want to live without Can's love. Her feelings were tattooed on her heart and she just couldn't erase them. Leyla just held her while she cried some more.

Can stayed up all night reading her book. He finally finished it. He now understands why he fell in love with her. She was unique and unlike anyone he had ever known. He just couldn't understand why he forgot her. He had to talk to her. He would see her at the agency today. He showered and got ready for work. Sanem decided she was not going to the agency today. She was going to head home, back to the farm. Can arrived at the agency, but Sanem was not there. He found Leyla and asked her where Sanem was. Leyla was acting very short with him. He could tell she was upset with him. Leyla told him he promised to never upset her sister again and he broke that promise. She told him she realizes it isn't his fault about the memory loss, but he hurt her all the same. Leyla told him Sanem went home and she wasn't coming into the office today.

Can left the agency soon after his conversation with Leyla and headed back to the farm. He found Sanem sitting in her chair, writing in her book. He approached her quietly. He saw she was crying while she was writing. He sat down in front of her. She stopped writing and closed her book. He asked her if she was writing her next book. Sanem nodded yes but would not look at him. He asked if it was another book about them. Sanem replied it was, but it was more about the grief of loosing a love of your life. Can just stared at her, with tears in his eyes. He told her he didn't die, and he was still here. Sanem finally looked at him and said her Can was no longer here. Her Can was gone and he wasn't coming back. Sanem got up and started to leave. Can called out her name.

Can asked Sanem if she would spend the day with him. Sanem declined. She said there was no point in spending time together and she needed to learn to live her life, without her Can. Can said please. Sanem looked at him and saw he was sincere. She said OK. Can asked her to bring her swimsuit. Sanem got ready and met Can at his truck. They got in the truck and left. He drove her to the coast where he rented a jet ski. Sanem said I have never been on one. Can told her to trust him. It was like a motorcycle but on water. Can got on and held out his hand to her. She took his hand and he helped on the jet ski. They rode all over the sea. Can stop at a beautiful little beach. They went and sat on the sand.

Sanem said it was amazing there and started playing in the sand. Can asked what she is doing. Sanem told him as a small child she loved building sandcastles. He said OK, let's do it. She said really. He responded by saying yes. So, they faced each other and began building a sandcastle. Can asked her if she knew the best part about him loosing his memory. Sanem said there is no best part about you loosing your memory. He said there is. Sanem asked him what. He said I get to know you all over again. He admitted he finished her book yesterday. He now realizes why he fell in love with her. He told her she was unique and there was nobody quite like her. He touched the side of her face. Sanem just stared at him. He smiled at her and leaned in to kiss her. Sanem jumped up and said she had a chill and was cold. Can laughed and said her feelings of being chilled had nothing to do with being cold. Sanem asked him if they could leave now.

Sanem got dressed behind the big rock and Can got the jet ski ready to depart. They hopped on and headed back to land.