LOOSING HOPE

SANDCASTLES

Can and Sanem were enjoying their time together in Agva. Sanem loved building sandcastles on the beach when she was little, so Can helped her build a beautiful sandcastle. He told her when their baby was born, they would come back and build sandcastles with their child. Sanem loved that idea. Sanem asked him if they were going to continue living on the farm. Can told her he wanted to talk to her about that. He asked what she thought of living in his childhood home. He loved it there. It overlooked Istanbul. It was also where he professed his love to her. Sanem looked at him and said really? Can said yes. He said it needed some work, but not much. Sanem said she loved the idea. It was a beautiful place. Can said wonderful. He said he had a lot of memories there, but he was looking forward to making new memories with her and their child. He told her she could change anything she wanted inside the house. She told him she had never even been inside of it. Can showed her the outside of it, which was stunning. He told her when the got back to Istanbul, he would take her there. He asked her if she would miss the farm. Sanem told him she would. It was her escape when he left for that year. And she really loved Mihriban. Can told her he she wanted to continue living there, he was OK with it. Sanem looked at him and smiled. She said you stay, I stay. You leave, I leave. Can laughed. Can told her he really wanted a fresh start with her and their unborn child. Sanem said OK then. We are moving.

Sanem's back was starting to hurt. She told Can she was feeling the effects of her pregnancy. He told her let's head back to our room and I will massage your back. Sanem smiled and said you got a deal. They packed up their stuff and headed back to the hotel. Can held her hand the whole way. Sanem felt like a princess since they have been there. Can was so attentive towards her and was spoiling her silly. They got back to their room and Can told her the massage would be better if she removed her clothes. She could cover herself from her bottom down. Sanem looked at him strange but said OK. She stripped down and laid on the bed face down. She covered herself with a sheet from her bottom down. Can sat down beside her and started rubbing her back. Sanem moaned with pleasure. She told Can it felt so good. He worked his way down to her lower back. Sanem groaned out loud due to the pain in her lower back. Can slowly worked out the pain. Sanem told him it was feeling so much better. Can smiled and told her he had magic hands. Sanem agreed. Can leaned over her and started kissing and licking her back. Sanem giggled and asked if this was a part of the massage? Can said of course; he knew what he was doing. He kissed the side of her neck, inhaling her fragrance. It was so intoxicating. He kissed his way to the back of her neck. By this time, Sanem was squirming on the bed. He quickly flipped her over and started massaging her front side. She told Can she wasn't having any pain on the front side. He asked her if she was sure, with a mischievous smile. Sanem said well, maybe a little pain. Can continued rubbing her front side. He started kissing her face, her cheeks and ended up on her lips. He made his way to her stomach where he kissed her all over her stomach. He started talking to the baby she was carrying. The massage turned into making love to his beautiful wife. He could make love to her all day long every day. They ended up falling asleep in each other's arms...skin on skin.

Can woke up first and just stared at his wife. He started playing with her hair which woke her up. She smiled at him and told him hi. He gave her a quick kiss and told her hi back. He asked her when she wanted to head back to Istanbul. She said she wanted to stay right here in his arms until the end of her days. Can smiled and said that would be nice, very, very, very nice. But we have to return to life one day. Sanem pouted and asked why? Can said because they had a home that needed a little work. They both had jobs at the agency. They had a baby coming in the future. Sanem told him she knew. She just wanted to stay in his arms forever. Can kissed her and said she would be in his arms, his heart and his soul forever. Sanem said OK, but asked if they could stay one more day? She wanted one more day of just him and her. Can told her anything she wanted.

They got up and got dressed. Can suggested room service instead of going out for food. Sanem agreed. She said she wanted pizza. Can laughed and said of course you do. Can asked her how about a movie in tonight? Sanem said sure. Can ordered the pizza and a movie from the hotel. They settled on a romantic comedy. The pizza and movie came a while later. Can went to grab a paper plate and Sanem stopped him. She told Can they would eat the pizza like lovers do. Can smiled because he remembered telling Sanem this while eating pizza at his old house. He played dumb and asked her how lovers eat pizza. She smiled and said lovers stay beside each other, whether on the couch or in the bed. They don't care what goes on in the world around them. She held the piece of pizza up so Can could take a bite. He in turn held a piece of pizza up so she could take a bite. She looked in Can's eyes and told him she was glad he was her first kiss. She was also glad he was the first man to make love to her. Can interrupted her and said first and ONLY man to ever make love to you. Sanem smiled and said yes. Can looked into her eyes and told her she may not have been his first kiss, but she will be his last. He told her he was glad she was the first woman he had ever made love to. He admitted to having sex with other women, but it was not making love. He has only made love to one woman his entire life and that was Sanem. He told her she was his one and only until the end of their days. When that day ever came, he would search for her in the afterlife. Sanem kissed him deeply and told him he was sweet. She asked if he was ready for the movie. He kissed her and said yes, my gorgeous wife. He wrapped his arms around her, and she put her head on his chest. The movie began.