Renesmees Note Book (WATTY AWARDS 2011 VOTE GUYS!!!)

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I hate my self. I really hate my self. How could I do this to Jake? I really hate my self. The voltory should just kill me now...

"Neisse don't think like that!" scolded my farther from across the room.

'sorry daddy but I can't believe I slept with Jason last night' Opps, wrong chose of words.

' you know what I mean daddy' I quickly thought after hearing him shift a growl.

"I know Neisse darling" he kissed my cheek gently and gave me a warm smile.

After Jake woke me up with his howl I had uncurled my self from Jason's arms and ran down stairs Jake was snarling, my farther and Jasper pushing him outside and

Jason had his hand on my shoulder....

"its okay Ness" he said trying to sooth me.

I looked up at him "no its not!" I cried. "he hates me"

"oh darling no he doesn't, come on, I've made you some cookies, you can talk to him as soon as he's calmed down" said Grandma Esme.

I nodded slowly calming down and sat in the kitchen eating chocolate chip cookies that I ADORED.

After finishing them, I walked back into the family room and curled up on the couch with my mother who looked at me sympafeticly. "don't worry sweetheart, everything will turn out fine" she promised with a warm smile.

"I feel so guilty momma...what did he say."

"he didn't get the chance to say anything love, he phased quickly before anyone got the chance to talk to him."

I looked down feeling guiltily again. Then I put my hand on her cheek.

'Momma im scared that he wont love me anymore and that he will hurt Jason. It wasn't his fault'

As I took my hand away from her cheek I felt tears run down my cheeks. My mother pulled me into a hug and rocked me as if I was a small child.

I cried into her hug for most of the day until I finally fell asleep.

When I woke up, I was in my bed. It was dark outside and my alarm clock said it was 10pm.

I was too tired to get up so I laid in my bed and listened to the world around me. I herd my mother and farther talking in their room which was next to mine. I concentrated to the noise that was in the room so I could hear probably as my hearing wasn't as good as a normal vampires....

"Edward we have to do something, she was crying all day"

"what do you want me to do Bella? I cant kick Jason out, he's part of the family and Jake's her imprint."

She sighed. "I don't know Edward, but I don't want my baby in pain"

"I know love, neither do I" I turned on my side and closed my eyes.

My mom was hurting because I was.

I didn't want that! In the morning I was going to talk to Jake and get this thing sorted out. Or, at least I would try

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