i wake up to Aria kicking me in the back in her sleep, not the most pleasant way to wake up i have to say. i sit up rubbing my eyes when i notice Niall isn't here, after Aria came last night neither of us said a word to each other he just took Aria upstairs and got in bed, so i went with them but we didn't even look at each other. it's just really weird how one minute we're okay just watching movies cuddling being all happy and then the next we can't even look each other in the eye, i guess i just really hurt him that bad.
i stand up quickly going into the en-suite and brushing my teeth i go to grab my phone when i notice Nialls wardrobe has most of his clothes scattered on the floor i look at my phone not having any texts from him making me panic. i run down stairs running into the kitchen sitting on the island is two plates both with pancakes on with a note sitting in the middle my heart dropping. i pick up the note chewing my lip as i open it
dear Jade, i'm sorry for how i acted last night i shouldn't have acted that way but it just made me think that maybe i'm not a good enough dad or i'm doing a shit job. i don't wanna hurt you i don't wanna make you feel the way you have, so ive booked a flight for you and Aria to say sorry for how i've made you feel, the tickets are in my draw next to the bed, it's only for a week and your flight is at 9, i'll be back when you guys get back but i think you deserve this break. i love you and i hope you have the best time, give Aria a kiss from me and tell her i love her. all my love Ni xx
"oh ni" i mumble holding the letter to my chest this is gonna kill Aria more than it's killing me. what kills me the most is how he's blaming himself even though it's not even slightly his fault for how i've been feeling it's all mine and my overthinking
Niall
"Niall you have the biggest heart" Eleanor smiles at me rubbing my arm as i put my head down "i feel like this is either gonna make or break us though" i mutter Louis sighing as i finish my sentence he wraps his arm around me "Ni how many times have i told you?" he asks me raising his eyebrows i shrug laughing slightly "far too many, your a great guy Ni and she ain't gonna wanna lose you, your the father of her child what you've done for her is only gonna make you love her more" he tells me wiping the tears from my cheeks i put my head in my hands just shaking my head.
she was right in a way i am immature, the way i acted screams that i'm immature i should have just said yeah we're young but i think we're doing a great job and you've got nothing to worry about. now Arias gonna be gutted that i'm not going to be around and probably stress Jade out more and not being with them for a week is gonna hurt me even more but i have to do it now "right i think this calls for a night out" Louis exclaims picking up his phone "El get the girls informed i'll tell the boys we're gonna have a great night" he cheers clicking on Harry's contact god i hope he's right
jadethirlwall
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
jadethirlwall mummy and daughter week💗 perrieedwards: she's a little diva!!💗 leighannepinnock: model in the making!! jesynelson: miss you guys already🥺
"love the way you hurt me and it doesn't even cross your mind"
writers note i'm gonna publish this whole book as i have this and another book waiting and i can't really keep up with having this anymore, i'll be publishing the third book too and maybe i'll update it every now and again if i have time, thank you for all the love and support it's meant to the world to me🤍
