Ang Babaeng Malaki Ang Eyebag

Kabanata 13: A date with her

Aphrodite’s POV

Seeing him again seems like bringing all the memories in the past. Before coming back again here in my hometown, all I thought was I’ve already moved on. But I was wrong.
It feels like all the pain in the past hit up the present. And I reminisced them, all.
The moment na nakita ko siya and that damn eyes, hindi gulat ang naramdaman ko, sakit. Masakit pa rin talaga kahit 3 years na ang nakalipas.
But I think I’ve made the right decision na tuluyan na munang lumayo sa kaniya at tanggihan ang offer niya. Lalo na’t ito, napatunayan kong hindi pa pala ako naka-move on. Maybe, I still liked him. But I need to get over these feelings before it turns crazy.

Yet it’s weird dahil everytime na maaalala ko si Bohr, napapangiti ako hindi dahil sa reason na gusto ko pa rin siya, kundi dahil sa best friend niya- si Athena. Though hindi pa rin talaga clear sa akin kung paano sila nagkakilala or in what particular time dahil eversince, I know na wala siyang best friend. Yes, he has a lot of friends in high school including me. That’s even the reason kung bakit nagulat siya nang malamang may gusto ako sa kaniya. And the very reason for hiding it in so many years was I’m afraid of the consequences. I’m afraid the dumating ang punto na masisira ang pagkakaibigan na aming nabuo. I liked and loved him that’s why I don’t want to lose him – as my friend. Until, I’ve confessed it all to him dahil nag-decide ang parents ko na umuwi ulit sa UK at doon na ulit ako mag-aral.
I remember, it’s the time of election. How funny it was dahil magkalaban pa si Dad at si Uncle Dong, Bohr’s Dad. They are running to became a mayor.

There comes a time na nagalit sa akin si Dad nang nalaman niyang mas sinusuportahan ko pa si Uncle Dong than him when it comes in campaigning. Yet, I regret all of it. Dahil bukod sa hindi nanalo si Dad, buo na ang kanilang desisyon na umuwi sa UK at tuluyan na akong mapapalayo sa kaniya.

Sadly, hindi man iyon ang inakalang rason ni Bohr sa agaran kong pag-alis, I know na hindi niya deserve pang malaman iyon. The only important thing was, I said it all to him kahit na ang magiging kapalit nito ay heartaches. Alam ko naman kasi na iyon ang magiging reaksyon niya. ‘Cause we will never ever became more than friends. Especially when it comes to our family. Both our families won’t agree to have the two of us -in a relationship.

But speaking of Athena, I really liked her. I never met a girl like her na hindi ko ba alam kung saan nagmumula ang good vibes niya. But the thing I know was, she has a charm. Iyon ang reason kung bakit gayon na lamang ang pagtataka ko na insecurities niya pala ang physical appearance kaya palagi na lang siyang binubully. At isa na roon si Zashumi.
Yes. Kilala ko si Zashumi .She was the fake ex-girlfriend of Bohr. Though I don’t know the real and complete details dahil may nakapagsabi lang naman sa akin, I know that it is just fake. Alam ko naman kasing hindi papatol si Bohr sa mga kagaya niya. It’s using common sense.
At kung mayroon mang girl na para sa akin ay karapat-dapat para kay Bohr, it’s weird for you to know, pero si Athena iyon. I don’t know. There’s something lang na cute sa tuwing magkasama sila. Lalo na nang makita ko kung paano niya hinila si Athena kanina to get rid of the ball sa gym. Feeling ko, may something sa kanila. I admit that it’s painful-  knowing the fact na gusto ko pa rin siya. But I know it’ll endure in the long run. I will learn to endure and forget all of these feelings I once wish to fade away.
Kasalukuyan na akong naglalakad patungo sa labas ng gate. Half-day lang naman ang pasok naming every Friday but I wish it was whole day para makita ko si Athena. But wait- oo nga pala, magkikita kami later sa coffeeshop.
Ano bang oras ulit iyon? Is this the right time para pumunta roon?
Hmm. How foo am I. I forgot kung anong oras kami magkikita.

Nagmadali na akong sumakay sa kotse and checked my facebook account, baka sakaling thru messenger ko siya ma-contact. Di ko kasi nakuha ang cellphone number niya if ever.
But when I tried to search her using her name, na-realize kong hindi ko pala alam ang surname niya. Kaya napapikit na lamang ako and tried to refresh myself. So I get the book na hiniram ko sa library and start to read its prologue.