Therapy: Session 2 [Personal]

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17 things i learned while i was 17

1. there are some really great people out there who love you for you

2. in any relationship, you have to work for it and sometimes it's hard

3. that being said, you can't be the only one working in the relationship for it to work

4. the joy is in the journey, not in the destination

5. it's okay to take a break sometimes

6. hard work can really pay off

7. you don't know everything, so shut the fuck up sometimes

8. you probably have autism lmao

9. you love reading so much and you really took it for granted in the last few years

10. having such high expectations for yourself is hurting you

11. not everything has to be aesthetic in order for it to have value

12. that being said, there's a certain aesthetic in not being aesthetic

13. spencer reid is the #1 love of your life, now and forever

14. things can change really quickly, so make sure you enjoy what's happening while it's happening

15. nostalgia is one hell of a drug and you can't trust it

16. if you feel really sad, just go to sleep. you might not feel better when you wake up but at least you won't do anything too stupid

17. you won't reach your own expectations, and that's okay

i hope you guys can take something away from this (if anyone actually reads this shit lmao). but really, 17 was quite a year for me. my birthday was less than a week before everything shut down so this entire year was filled with lockdowns and quarantines. but i really did learn a lot from having so much time to myself.

i lost some friends and i made some friends. i grew close with people i've known and become distant from people i was really close to. some of it was hard, but it was all probably for the best.

i've faced so much disappointment. i had everything i was looking forward to ripped away from me, and just had to "deal with it". especially now, with graduation coming up, i feel so angry at the world for taking away the best parts of my high school experience. but i just have to deal with it.

i'm still working on the whole autism thing. i've suspected it for a while now and i think i'm going to really try to get tested for it.

god, 17 was really hard. but it was also good at some parts.

but that's life. and now that i'm an adult, i get to look forward to the soul-crushing rest of it.