Therapy: Session 2 [Personal]

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the good thing about him is that he knows who i am.

many of my crushes have gone and passed without the other knowing i exist. but this one knows who i am.

he's had me hold his trumpet. he's talked to me a few times. he's driven to my house twice. he's told me he loves me (which he tells everyone so i'm not special). he's given me a hug.

so at least he knows who i am.

but he doesn't know the way i like him.

he's so out of my league it's painful. he's so pretty and sweet and talented. and i'm just... me. i'm no one special. if i were to leave 99% percent of the school wouldn't even notice.

he's so him. he's genuine and kind. he's determined and ambitious. he knows what he wants and he works for it. he's so smart and sweet to everyone. and to add, he's incredibly attractive.

but the thing i like best is his smile. it's so real and big. it shows who he is, a happy person who's gone through some deep shit.

man, i just wish i had a chance.