Therapy: Session 2 [Personal]

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another thing that gives me such bad anxiety is getting in cars.

like tomorrow i'm going to a sectional for marching band, but i have to get picked up at my moms work by the section leader.

so now, all night and up until the moment she picks me up my mind is going to be:

am i going to sit in the front seat or in the back? which side of the road is she gonna pull up from? where will i put my stuff? should i sit in the front or the back? which side should i go to first?

and now, i'm starting to get anxiety over the sectional.

what if i'm so much worse at my music than other people? what if i am so behind on exercise that i make a fool out of myself? what if they don't like my new hair? what if i can't learn everyone's name? what if elizabeth doesn't like my hair? what if the new freshmen don't like me? what if i have a panic attack?

oh jesus christ i need to go now