Therapy: Session 2 [Personal]

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i've been trying so hard to be a good person lately.

trying so hard.

i think i've been a better friend. i think i've been a better child. i think i've been a better person.

i think the universe would reward me at some point,

no,

not even reward me. just help me out a little bit.

but life keeps hitting me hard.

relentlessly. in every possible way.

and those friends who i've cared about so deeply? tried so hard to prove my love to them?

they don't give a shit.

i've spent the past 6 months being better for them, only for them to be completely apathetic when i need them.

i know it will get better,

but damn,

it's hard to be hopeful when nothing is going good and no one cares enough to help you.