📌CAN I QUIT?
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"I'm depressed, but nobody here to cheer me up."
"They are sad but here i am, cheering them up."
"Lisa, i'm sad. My mother and father are fighting again." She said and cried in my shoulders.
I hugged her,
"It's ok bea, i'm always here right? I will listen to you." I smiled at her and hugged her again.
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"Lenard! Are you drunk?! Oh my god we don't have a money anymore! Fuck!" I heard my mom from their room, shouting.
"Melinda! Can you please stop?! Hindi ka na nakakatulong!" My dad said and hit my mother.
I heard my mother sobs so i go to her to comfort her, "Mom are you ok?" I asked.
But she slap me and she stood up, leaving their room.
I silently cry, "God why did you make this?" I angrily said.
I punch the wall and cry till i fell sleep.
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"Hi anna, balita ko naghiwalay na yung nanay mong magnanakaw at yung tatay mong lasinggero."
"HAHAHAHHA kawawa."
"Buti nga."
I smiled bitterly and go to our room.
Yes, my mom and dad broked up.
I can't imagine na wala na sila, kahit lagi silang nag-aaway.
My tears started to fall again.
I wiped my tears up.
"It's ok anna." Gerald said while handing a handkerchief.
I smiled at him and leaved him alone, i don't want anyone to comfort me again,
Because last time.. that someone comfort me, he also leaved me.
I know that i am strong enough to handle my pain.
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"Maam, here's my project." I gave her my project with a brightly smile on my face."What is this anna?! Effortless tss. Get out!" Maybe she's disappointed?
I carried the pain she gave, i'm disappointed too.
I don't have enough money to reach your standard.
I'm sorry.
Maybe i will go to my friend's house..
"Lisa? Can i go with you?"
"Oh i'm sorry Anna, i am busy now. Maybe tomorrow? I really really sorry. Bye."
See? That's why i don't want to have friends anymore.
They just using me.
It's funny that i'm so stupid, i pity to myself.
I'm helpless.
Can somebody help me? I wanna be free.
All i want is a peace.
I don't wanna be prison in my own sadness.
I wanna lived with a happy family, friends and a peaceful mind.
Can i quit?
Maybe all i can do is to pray.
"Please god, help me."
I open the book, they call it bible so i started to read it.
This is a words of god, right?
My heart.. oh i started to cry.
Am i really bad?
I made a lots of sin.
But i know, this is not the end.
I wanna start a new life, with my god.
Maybe i just.. choose to be sad.
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I smile, "Mom, you can read the bible too. The words of god is a powerfull. Mom, i'm not sad or depress anymore. I'm happy now even dad is not with us, or i don't have a friends i am happy mom. God is with me." While i said those words my eyes are starting to cry, this is not because of sadness.
It's a result of being happy, i'm free now.
I can smile now without pretending.
I can sleep without crying at night.
Jesus, he started to heal my wounds.
They're right, God is the best doctor and prayer is a best medecine.
WRITTEN BY ZELLEN SMITH
May 30, 2020.
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