Had I known How to Save a Life

Not Ready Yet

Chapter 5
*Meredith POV*

It's been a month and a half since the accident. I'm 8 weeks along. Derek is alive. He has his memory. He's in physical therapy, just to strengthen everything, and he had a small femur fracture. But he's alive. He's alive and that's all I'm thankful for.

"Well Derek, I think you only have 2 days stuck in here. After you go home, you'll continue you're rehab/PT. And as soon as you're ready you can come back and operate." Owen says.

That makes Derek happy. Owen leaves and Derek says, "have you told anyone yet? About the baby?"

"Not yet. Derek I still have a hostile uterus. Plus I want to wait for you to get better." I tell him.

"Oh come on. You should at least call Christina. You know she'd be happy." He says.

"I'm sure she would. I just want things to go back to normal first." I explain.

"Okay honey. Just whenever you're ready." He tells me.

*2 days later*

Today Derek is getting discharged. I've been waiting for this for a month and a half. He needed follow up surgeries after the craniotomy and the abdominal injuries. But he's making an amazing recovery. I can't thank God enough that he's alive. That we're having another baby. That things are almost normal. But then again, nothing is ever normal.

Derek stays home with the kids, he had minor deficits from his crash so he's relearning how to use his body.

I get to work and see Alex, "Hey so Derek is finally home." I tell him.

"That's great. Hey I need to ask you something." He says nervously.

"Ever since Derek's crash I've been thinking about how short time we have. I mean I'm a doctor, I know we don't get forever. But I love Jo, and I want to spend the rest of my life with her. I even bought this 3 days ago" he says and pulls out a box with a diamond ring.

This is a pretty big step for Alex. I know he even said "One day I'm going to marry that girl," but that wasn't even that long ago. I'm actually pretty proud of him.

"Should I do it? Should I propose? What if I'm not ready yet?" He asks me.

"Go for it Alex. I mean you just said it, we don't have forever." I tell him.

My pager beeps I have consult with Maggie.

"Hey what's up?" I ask her.

"Can you look at this scan?" She says.

"Oh my God, is that a tumor? Wrapped around the heart, liver, and spleen?" I shocking say.

"I think it is," I tell her.

Right before I can say anything else, I turn around to the trash can to vomit. Morning sickness really sucks ass.

"Oh my God, Meredith are you okay?" She asks concerned.

"Yes...no..I don't know." I tell her. Obviously pointing out the fact that I'm pregnant.

"Meredith...are you?" She asks curiously.

"8 weeks. Actually 9 tomorrow." I tell her. I can tell she's happy. She brings me in for a hug.

"Aw congratulations!" She says.

"Just don't go blabbing it off. I have a hostile uterus so I have a high chance of miscarriage." I tell her.

"Don't worry, you're secret is safe with me." She happily says.

The tumor resection was a very long surgery. It took forever to get around it and ensure we didn't hurt anything around the organs. The patient almost bled out but we got the bleeding under control.

"This is why I love being a surgeon. Nothing else can give you this kind of rush." Maggie says.

"You got that right. I'm heading home now. See you later." I tell her.

On my way home I begin to think about everything:

We don't get to know when our time is up. Even as doctors. When we give our patients a certain number of months to live, 6 months can turn into 3 months in a heartbeat. When we say we're going to be together forever. How long is forever? Is it the "till death do us part"? The truth is, we don't get to know when our time is up, so if you're going to do something do it now. Being scared means you still have something to lose but that doesn't mean you don't have something to gain.

I get home early the next morning. "Derek? Anyone home?" I ask. It's super early like 4 am so the kids should be sleeping. I walk into mine and Derek's room and see..

Author Note:
I'm over joyed to hear some of y'all really enjoy my story. Being that this is the first I've ever written and published that makes me so happy. If y'all every have any questions; about the story, what's going to happen next, or anything else, I'd be more than happy to answer.

~Erin :)