I was home alone. I felt safe since my mom didn't know I was here. Layla was out with Carlos and Marcus was with Tasha, trying to get Mitchell and my mom fired sooner.
I heard a knock on the door. I looked through the peephole and it was Chanel.
I opened the door, letting her in quickly and closing it immediately and locking it.
"As far as my mom knows, I'm not here. So don't say anything." I said.
"I won't. I just wanted to come to talk. We definitely need to." Chanel said.
"Yeah, no kidding." I said.
"I wanted to start with I'm sorry. I'm a psycho Freshman and in reality I hurt you because I was hurt. My mom only cares about me when she takes me shopping and my dad... isn't even my dad. I just found out. My real dad is with his new wife Amanda and their kids, Jimmy and Tracey in Los Angeles. I tried getting in touch with him and he said he didn't want anything to do with me. Chad told me that I needed to get my act together, and I'm trying. I was jealous, I thought you were perfect, I thought you had everything you wanted until I saw those files. I didn't know why I started all this bullshit, it ruined a lot for you and I'm so sorry Zoey." She said.
"Listen, I ignored what you said, it's just the fact you personally didn't know about my life but wanted to spread the bad parts around. That hurt. I'm not perfect, trust me. Marcus and I had been best friends since we were in diapers and I had gained feelings for him but trust me, I don't have everything." I said.
"If you don't mind me asking, what happened?" She asked.
"Well, it started when I was 2. My dad was abusive. He pointed a gun to my sister's head, he hit us, he didn't feed us, he yelled at us, and my mom did the same. Then he left. My mom also started leaving. Summer before Sophomore year I found my mom's Xanax in her cabinet and tried ending my life for the first time. My sister caught me in time, which my mom found out and sent me to a mental facility for 2 weeks. That's where I met Tasha. I hadn't slept, I hadn't eaten, and I hadn't been myself. After that I took 2 Xanax the day before my first day of school to forget. Then, on my birthday I overdosed again, going to the mental hospital for 2 months. Then after that I started getting better and the reason why I overdosed on my birthday is because of my parents. They came over and i had major PTSD. Then, when you came and said all that stuff, I was thinking about using again, that's why I went back to the mental hospital, so I could save myself. Then when I came back to Marcus "cheating on me" with you I started realizing that drugs didn't solve the problems. Ever since that I hadn't thought about a single drug until I saw my mom again." I said.
"Wow." She said.
"Yep. So that's definitely not perfect. Almost dying twice isn't a normal thing to do." I said.
"I can't believe I did that. Oh my God I cant believe I did that." She said.
"Chanel, it's okay." I said.
"It's not okay Zoey. There's no way I can live with that." She said.
"I promise it's okay." I said.
Chanel hugged me. I was glad she finally came to her senses.
