lost me (Minho×ot8)

hyunlixinseungsung 1

Seungmin's pov 15th December 2019

I can't believe this is happening, it been a year since I start dating jisung...and three months since we got to meet the three new members....hwang hyunjin...lee felix and yang jeongin...i was hell of jealous when i saw how jisung started to act and talk about the oldest of the three...and when I comforted him I found out that he is a polygamous and of course because of my stupidity i told jisung to talk to him...I have no idea why I did that...

Honestly I am counting on the fact that hyunjin is dating felix and he is going to reject jisung....I ran my hand across my hair and took a deep breath...yes...that's what is going to happen...I sat on the bed as my leg bounced up and down...I don't know how to deal with this...jisung is a polygamous...even if hyunjin refuses his feelings there is no guarantee that he won't fall for someone else as well... since he is poly does that mean that he likes felix as well?...just the thought of that makes me feel sick..I don't want to share my boyfriend and I don't think I want to date other people myself...it is not something i want or thought about...I respect jisung but I don't believe in loving more than one person...I have never experienced it before.

"Baby" the door of our room flew open revealing an excited jisung...I have a bad feeling about this...he was smiling ear to ear.
"Guess what?" He said hugging me.
"What?" I asked gulping please don't let it be what I think it is....god please.
"I talked with hyunjin" he said making my heart drop" You won't believe what I found out...he is polyamorous as well " he added making me freeze...you have got to be kidding me...this is a joke.
"He said that?" I asked pulling back from the hug.
"You don't seem okay..."
"Just tell me what happened jisung?" I cut the shorter who seemed taken back by my outburst " I am sorry...what happened?", I added with a much calmer voice...I was the one who told him to talk to hyunjin I can't get mad at him.

"You are not okay with this...I can see it...I told you that you don't need to force yourself seungmin" he said taking my hand" I am attracted to hyunjin...and a bit to felix if I am going to be honest " he continued, I clenched my jaw in anger" but I am in love with you...I just met them...if you say no to this I will ended it before it starts...I promised you that I will never hurt or break your heart...I am sorry I hide this part of me from you but since we start dating,I never thought about another person until now...it was not worth mentioning..."
"Even if you told me that you are polyamorous before we started to date it wouldn't have changed anything jisung...I would have accepted you...because I love you too" I said caressing his cheek.

"I will talk to hyunjin again if you want...no one is more important than you right now" jisung said making me smile...I feel kind of weird satisfaction by his words.
"Isn't people who are polyamorous love their partners the same way?" I asked titling my head.
"They do, but as I said...I am attracted to hyunjin and felix but not in love...if you are against this I will respect you...you don't have to do this for me" jisung answered.
"It is who you are jisung...even if I tell you that I don't want to share you with them...in the future you could fall for other people...it is an endlesss..."

"You are not listening to me" jisung cut me off " I told you about this because I caught some feelings to another person but if you are against this I will burry this part of me" he added.
"You can't do that for me..."
"And I can't force you to accept my perefences as well...it is not fair to you" he said shaking his head...I was lost of words as I started at the older...I feel trapped...I am not polyamorous and jisung is not monogamous...this is going to end by one of us getting hurt somehow.
"Tell me what happened?" I asked leading him toward the couch before we sat down.

Jisung's pov
I was hell of excited after I talked to hyunjin, but seeing how hurt and sad seungmin looked broke me...I promised that I will never hurt him...and if it means that I will have to be just with him for the rest of my life I will be okay with that...I love him that much and I am ready to make that sacrifice for him...my feelings for hyunjin are more than a little crush...I wanted to be sure before I tell seungmin but if I tell him the truth he will be more hurt...and i am kind attracted to hyunjin's boyfriend as well.
Hyunjin is Mrs hwang's son...I knew him when we were young but we barely met then he just disappeared I didn't know where he went and I have never asked...I just moved on with my life.