lost me (Minho×ot8)

chapter 49

Minho's pov
"Minie, what is wrong?" Seonghwa asked making me stare at him...I took a deep breath leaning into my chair.
"What do you mean?" I asked back.
"You asked me to meet up for coffee but since we came you didn't say a word...is everything okay?" The other asked again.
"Yeah fine,I just wanted to see you...how is everything going?"I said sipping my coffee.
"We are much better after what happened " seonghwa answered " what about you, how is things going with the new team?" He added.

"I am trying my best to stay composed and trust the process " I said taking a deep breath " I was shot" I added making his eyes widen.
"What...how...are you okay..."
"Hwa calm down...I am sitting right in front of you...it I hit my shoulder...but..." I cut the other off before I stopped midsentence...i trust hwa and the boys, but I am afraid he will tell Mr min about this...I am trying my best not to attack the man...if I had a damn proof I would have just...but if I am going to suspect someone for sure it is going to be him not the boys.
"But?" Seonghwa said.
"The bullet it was poisoned, but I am totally fine now" I replied making his eyes widen.
"Do you know who did it? Do you need help..."

"We have it covered don't worry" I said cutting him off " how is Mr min btw?" I added.
"As annoying as ever" seonghwa said rolling his eyes, I mean no one in the team likes him." When and where were you shot? Was It a mission? Do you think it is heechul? Do you think you are back to work as an agent?" He asked one question after another not giving me the chance to answer.
"Few days ago...at the cemetery...no...I don't know...maybe" I replied taking another sip from my coffee.
"The cemetery?" Seonghwa said frowning " did you go to visit their graves?" He added.

"Yeah" I said clenching my jaw...the explosion  and fire were too strong that they didn't even manage to retrieve their bodies...they only found some DNA that confirmed that they were inside the car...I mean I barely looked away from them before the explosion was heard...they are gone...
"How do you feel about it?" My friend asked looking worried " you didn't want to go there" he added.
"I wanted to talk with jisoo I guess, I am....I am lost these days" I answered smiling sadly...I remembered the dream I had of my family...our life would have been perfect if that man didn't ruin everything for me.
"I am here to listen if you want" seonghwa said making me nod.

"I know, I am just not ready" I said, I am afraid of losing control over my feelings...I am afraid of letting myself fall in love again...which I can't do...hwang hyunjin is dating other people...and I am sure as hell I am not polyamorous...and I can't develop such emotions toward anyone...jisoo was my only and last love...I gulped playing with the cup...but why do I feel so suffocated...
"Taeyang" I looked toward the loud voice that echoed through the surprisingly quiet coffee to see a woman...she was carrying a baby between her hands.
"Baby,i told you to wait for me in the car" A young looking man said.

"Well, i changed my mind..let's sit here" the woman said.
"But Ara, you wanted to..."
"Yeah, but I want to sit here now...bring our orders here, min and I will be sitting there" Ara I guess her name said walking toward the table next to seonghwa and I...we locked eyes for a moment which was awkward before I looked away.
"I need to leave now " I said getting up.
"It is still early " seongwha said following after me...suddenly the baby started to cry making me look at him...I remembered how mina was to cry when she was a baby...jisoo had a hard time calming her down...but as soon as i carried her she just stops...my little baby...I shook my head before I walked out of the shop.

"We will meet again...say hi to hoongjoong and the boys " I told the other before I pulled him into a hug.
"Are you really okay?" Seonghwa asked sounding shocked by my sudden move.
"Yeah, fine...take care" I answered stepping back.
"There is something going on with you that's for sure but I know you won't tell me if you are not ready " he said pointing his finger at me " just be careful " he added making me nod.
"I will " I replied.
"God" seonghwa said hugging me once again before he left walking toward his car...now...