lost me (Minho×ot8)

chapter 64

Minho's pov ( next day)
"So how are you doing son? Are you sleeping and eating enough?" My Mom asked looking at me with concerned expression, we are having a video call...chan hyung and I talked to Captain han and he arranged for their departure...it is better this way...I miss them but it is for their protection...they are the only family I still have if something happens to my parents, I will lose my mind...i can't see anyone i care about get hurt...I can't survive the death of anyone else.

"Yes, mom...I am doing okay" I replied nodding my head...not exactly, I am living in a mess but she doesn't need to know that.
"How is jisung?" She asked making me frown.
"Why do you always ask about him when we talk?" I asked back, she has been like this since she met him.
"He is a nice man...did he talk to you?" She asked again.
"About?" I said raising my eyebrow.
"Nevermind"my mother said rolling her eyes.
"No say it..."
"It is time for you to start over minho...I loved jisoo...she was like a daughter to me...but you are my son...I want to see you happy...and don't tell me that you are...you are not...you are hurting...you are alone...and it pains me seeing you like this...you can't live alone forever " my mom said cutting me off...I was truly taken back by her sudden confrontation.

"Honey" my dad said frowning.
"He needs to move on...I can't see him like that and don't say anything...i want to die knowing that he is being taken care of", she answered staring between my father and I.
"Why did you have to bring death..."
"Because it is life...people die all the time...in accidents...from sickness...whether you are old or young...you don't know when your time comes to leave this earth, it is our fate minho...we are not immortal" my mother said taking a deep breath " I am not pushing you just because you are my son...if the tables were reversed...if we lost you instead of jisoo..I would have told her to move on as well...you grieved...you are working hard to catch the person responsible for her death...but you deserve to be happy " she added.

I know she is right, i know that everyone is right...my friends...the boys...but it is not easy...I still remember seungmin's words from yesterday...either admit that I want to be a part of their relationship or leave...oh believe me...I just want to choose the latter and just get over with it...it is the easiest, simplest choice to make....my life will just go back to being boring...I will go back to being focused on just Kang heechul...but a part of me is just refusing to do so...a part of me wants to let go and just admit to being attracted to hwang hyunjin...but do I want to be a part of their relationship? I don't think so...as I told jisung...I want a relationship build on a truth not lies...I refused to let anyone inside my heart by keeping myself away from everyone...i am not going finally open up in a situation like this.

"Minho, say something for God's sake" my mom said pulling me out of my thoughts.
"Are you aware that jisung is in a poly relationship? And he is dating six other men" I said making my father's eyes widen.
"Honey, what you didn't tell me about this?" He said looking at my mom with shocked expression.
"It doesn't matter...I saw it...I saw it in his eyes...he cares about you..."
"You met him once" I cut her off.
"But I am a mother...your mother..I know things...my guts are never wrong...that boy is in love with you and he is a keeper...i trust that his boyfriends are the same" she cut me off throwing me some serious glare...yeah the super power of being a mom....and mine is really not messing around this time...straight to the point.

"But Honey...hold on...it is a poly...minho might be uncomfortable about something like this...you want him to date seven men...it is not common or usual..."
My father stopped midsentence when he saw my mom's glares directed toward him this time...I swear I almost laughed at their interaction...I always admired my parents' relationship...I imagined myself and jisoo like this....we get old together...I retire and we go somewhere far away from my messy military life...and just spend the rest of our days with each other...but heechul stole that from me...he took my wife away from and crashed my dreams.
"Minho doesn't need anything normal or usual at this point...he needs to open his heart again...who knows...maybe he was meant to meet this men...maybe it was all destined to happen", my mom said bringing me back to reality.