lost me (Minho×ot8)

chapter 13

Seungmin's pov ( next morning)
I left the room in a hurry marching toward hyunjin's room...I didn't bother to knock on his door I just opened it with force making the older jump in alert.
"Seungmin what happened?" His hair was messy and his eyes were red and puffy as if he had cried the whole night.
"What did you do to felix?" I asked entering the room.
"Seungmin it is between felix and I..."
"Yeah many of the secrets you two have" I yelled clenching my jaw. " I entered this relationship for jisung at first but i fell for the rest of you after...but this...I never understood this part of the relationship...hiding secrets from each other" I added.

"It is not like you don't have secrets of your own..."
"That's it I don't " I yelled" you always say that I am the hardest to read just because I don't talk much but it is just me...I have no secrets....I am not a complicated person...you freaking know everything about me...hell the craziest thing I have done was to try and blow up my ex's motorcycle and you know about that" I continued taking a deep breath" but you and felix...this weird relationship between the two of you...keeping secrets from the rest of us is wrong...we are supposed to be one...we are supposed to trust each other" I added feeling my whole body shake with anger. The taller got up from the bed and carefully approached me.

"I am sorry..."
"We are not a mission...we are real people with emotions...I would have blamed the way you grew up but jisung is not like you....what is wrong with you? It...it feel like you don't care about us sometimes...hell you left without even a second thought...you...you promised me that you would never hurt me...but...you..." i said taking a deep breath...I came here to yell at him but I am losing hold of my emotions.
"I know...I know this is all my fault...my apologies may not mean anything to you...but I am trying...I am trying to make this better" hyunjin said taking my hands" the way my mom raised me and the way jisung grew up are different...he had a loving family...but I spent my whole life training...I see everything as a mission...I know that...but I want to fix things...I want to fix myself...and I need you to help me...all of you"he added caressing my cheek...I felt myself lean into his touch...last year I tried to convince myself that I could move on from him...that I don't love him anymore....but who I am kidding...that's impossible.

" I hate you" I yelled storming out of the room and ignoring his calls...I hate all of this...I hate how complicated our lives are...I hate how everything is linked to our job...is this what a healthy relationship is supposed to be? Filled with secrets and lies.
I entered my workshop heading immediately to the prototype of a bomb I was working on...this is the only things that is going to calm me now.

Jisung's pov
I rang the bell before I took a few steps back waiting for the door to be opened.
Soon enough it was opened revealing a very grumpy looking minho, he looked tired as usual...but now I understand him...i mean the man is suffering...he lost his family and a young age...he is trying to avenge them all alone...he has no one...I just want to pull him into a hug right now but he will probably beat me up.
"What are you staring at?" He said snapping me out of my thoughts...oh shit I was staring.

"Good morning neighbour " I said smiling widely at him.
"You asked for my name so you won't call me that" he answered crossing his arms above his chest.
"Well, since I don't know how old are you I wanted to ask you about that first...like how should call you...minho...minho hyung...minho-shi..."
"Jisung, call me as you wish...I am not in a good mood...why are you here?" He said cutting me off.
"You are never in a good mood" I said chuckling but he didn't seem to bug...a bad move I see " I wanted to check on you...your face is healed up nicely...what about your stomach...chan hyung told me that you didn't let him examine you" I added.

" I am fine" he answered taking a deep breath" anything else" he added...there is another thing...i know he is always grumpy and yells a lot but today...he seemed sad...almost broken.
" so how old are you?" I asked making him sigh.
"Tweenty six if we are done here i have work to do..."
"So you are my hyung...I didn't have breakfast what do you think about inviting me in for coffee? We could chat and get to know each other..."
Before I could finish my sentence the door was closed on my face leaving me shocked...I guess I pushed my luck more than I should have...well I tried...