lost me (Minho×ot8)

hyunlixinseungsung2

Seungmin's pov
I hate this....I hate this so much...it is been two weeks since I agreed to this mess...two weeks since jisung entered the other three's relationship...I am supposed to be dating them as well...I guess...but it like whenever one of them try to approach me I ran away...it is starting to get noticeable but chan and changbin hyung...I am not comfortable...and I don't know what should I do?

I don't regret my decision, I want jisung to be happy...but...I can't just accept thus easily...this is new to me....to share my boyfriend with other people...to open my heart to other people.
"Kim seungmin what is wrong with you?" Our trainer's voice pulled me out of my thoughts.
"What is it madame?" I asked blinking my eyes...all of the six boys were staring at me which made me self-conscious...what happened?
"I called your name multiple times we are moving to the next exercise...what is wrong with you these days young man?" She asked scanning me.
"I...I apologise " I answered bowing my head...god damn it...I am turning into a  mess.
"You know what, Today's training is over...get yourself together " she said before she walked out of the training room.

"Seungie, are you okay?" Chan hyung said apparently me...I glanced at jisung who had a frown on his face. It is been just two weeks yet he managed to go in dates with all of them, I didn't even dare to ask him if something happened between them...if they kissed or...god.
"I am fine, just tired" I answered smiling at little at the younger.
"Something is off, I can feel it" changbin hyung said " and I feel that you know " he added looking at the other four.
"Seungmin, come with me please" hyunjin said.
"I don't want to..."
"We need to talk" he cut me off before I could finish my sentence before he gently grabbed my hand and pulled me out of the room.

"Where are we going?" I asked but didn't try to stop him...I am curious what he wants from me.
He soon opened one of the rooms checking it out before he closed the door.
"You are not comfortable with this relationship " the taller said staring at me...well done sherlock." In matter of fact I don't even think you are a part of this relationship to begin with...jisung told is that you are okay with this...but you didn't even talk ...and you have been ignoring us" he added.
"I did it for jisung okay...I am not interested in any of you" I replied making the older sighed " I am not polyamorous " i added.

"Neither was felix or jeongin" hyunjin said running his hand across his hair " I am not saying that you should just accept us...or fall for all of us...but you want you to be open to the fact that you can be a part of this relationship it is true that we barely know each other but that's a good thing...get to know us...maybe you will surprise yourself and find out that it is possible for you to like us as well" he added.
"You said it yourself...I don't know you...which means I don't trust you" I said shaking my head...the only man I trust with my heart is jisung...the idea of falling in love again after bomin scared the hell out of me...now they want me to try to be in a relationship with more than one person...to trust that none of them will hurt me...none of them will leave.

I am not saying that I am willing to try but how serious are they about this? Is this an experiment? Are they serious?How does this works? I can't get it inside my head.
"You should have been clear with jisung and us from the start...you are hurting yourself and possibly all of us...I am catching feelings for jisung and so are the others...and if..." he paused shaking his head" i don't want this to end...i don't want to lose jisung...and if it does it is going to affect our team...it is happening already" he added, I looked away and took a deep breath...what have I done? How I am going to deal with this...I am so divided right now.

"I need to go" I announced storming out of the room without waiting for an answer...what did I get myself into? He is right...I joined the military to be a part of a team...to put my talent into use...to serve my country...I was happy and thankful that I found love again but I have never expected something like this to happen.
"Seungmin where are you going?" Jisung asked stopping me in the halls.
"I need some air jisung...i will talk to you later" I answered walking past him...as I told him...I respect his preferences and no matter what I will love him...I was the one who agreed to this in the first place...I need to face it.