lost me (Minho×ot8)

chapter 29

Minho's pov
All I can say is that these people are weird...they are just not serious at all, I didn't expect this from the best team the organisation has...han jisung is just smiling at me all the time, lee felix keeps watching me for some reason and there is hwang hyunjin...there is something with him I can't point out...he makes me feel odd for some reason...oh and god...I almost forgot...bangchan and the youngest are dating, I saw them in the kitchen this morning...so jisung and hyunjin are not the only ones...I mean i don't mind my past team were all dating each other.

I sat on the bed taking a deep breath, this is confusing but again...me, seonghwa and the boys were like this before, playful from time to time but serious when I comes to work.
" it feels like i lost the taste of life after I lost you jisoo" I murmured playing with my ring...a tear escaped my eyes but I immediately whipped it away...I cried enough already now I have a chance to take down Kang heechul, killing his son should have made me feel better but it didn't...it doesn't feel enough...that's why I asked hyunjin about his feelings after he learned about the death of deathshot.
I took the phone chan gave me the other day out before I dialed my mom's number.
"Hello, who is this?" She answered...I bite my lips trying to calm myself down...I went through hell but I made my family suffer with me too...I wish...I wish I could make them feel better...my parents are so worried about me...I hate that...i have never been the type of son that is a burden on his parents.

My whole life I made them proud of me...I graduated on top of my class I married the most beautiful woman...I had the most amazing little girl...I had a perfect complete life...I was happy and so was my parents but now...everything is a mess...is this my fate?
"Mom" my voice came out as a whisper.
"Omg, minho...where have you been? I called you like hundreds of times...I was worried I had to call seonghwa....your dad is losing his mind..."
"Mom, please calm down" i said cutting her off...I hate myself so much right now, I should have called them as soon as I got the new phone, I mean i just lost my last one and we are not used to talk daily but i should have know better" I am sorry, I lost my old phone...this is my new number "i added.
"How did you lose it? Are you hurt?"my father said instead of her.

"You are on speaker minho" my mom said.
" it is nothing I promise" I replied " I am going to switch to a video call" I added hitting the button before they could answer.
"Oh my god minho" my mom yelled trying to cover her face.. she was crying...and hard...it is been  two years since they saw my face...this is thd first time I video call them.
"You...you seem..."my dad stopped midsentence scanning my face.
" dead...I know" I murmured.
"No, you changed...you...I know that you have been through a lot...but I am not used to see you like this" he said shaking his head.
" I get it...broken sad and depressed " I said chuckling slightly.

Around three months after I lost my family, I left them with saying anything...I made sure to call them from time to time just for them to hear my voice and know that I am fine...this is not their fault...I shouldn't treat them like this.
"Stop this minho...please" my mom said crying "let the government take care of that man...come back to us...I can't...we can't do this anymore", she added sobbing hard making my father hug her.
" listen to your mom minho..."
"I am close" I cut my father off.
"You have been saying this for two years...you are one man against a monster...you can't do this alone" my mom cut me off looking angry all the sudden.

" I am not alone" I said.
"What..."
"Hyung we are waiting for you" the door of my room was shot open, I looked up to see han jisung frozen standing in front of me " I am sorry I didn't know you were having a phone call" he added...yeah and he should have knocked.
"Minho, who are you talking to?" My mom asked confused.
"Next time knock" I said glaring at the younger.
"I apologise I will leave..."
"Come over here" I cut him off mentioning for him to get closer.
"Excuse me?" He said tilting his head.
I stood up walking toward him without saying anything before I pulled him next to me.
"Mom, dad this is han jisung" I told the two who looked as confused as jisung.