lost me (Minho×ot8)

chapter 31

Minho's pov ( next day)
" everyone here is talking about how you ruined Kang's drug deal" seonghwa said through the phone...all teams and members that work in the military or directly under the organisation know that Skz now are the one appointed to catch kang heechul I won't be surprised if he got the news as well.
"It is nothing...just a drug deal..."
" minho you arrested the twins who are leading one of the biggest gangs dealing with drugs in China...the Chinese government sent a special thank you to the organisation " he cut me off.

"Yeah, I heard" I murmured running my hand across my hair.
"My friend you are so immersed into getting kang heechul to the point that you forgot what is it like to capture other criminals...it is a win minie...accept it" seonghwa said making me smile a little...he is kind of right...it reminded me of what jeongin said to me yesterday...did I become so focused on what happened to my family to the point that I have forgotten about other? He is right a lot of people had suffered and are suffering from losing their loved ones...I have been treating my parents and friends badly the past two years.
"Thanks hwa, I will call you later I need to go", I said before I hand up and threw the phone away.

"I am losing my mind" I whispered clenching my hair...I stood up from my bed before I left the room.
"Hey" chan said smiling at me as he walked past me but he didn't stop.
"Hey" I replied not sure if he heard me, I glanced back his way as he disappeared down the hall. I am just using this team to get what I want? I am not...I was not a person like that before. I know that I messed things up with my old team but they were my family, and at this point I Don't think I am ready or even able to start something like that again however this type of work needs full trust...their lives depends on me and so does mine...I don't care about mine but for sure i don't want to get someone killed because we couldn't communicate.

Since jisoo and mina died , I became a hard person to approach I know that, i think that why some of them are walking on eggshells around me.. or maybe they are not used to me...or in case of the two youngest they simply don't want me in the team...i am not blind i can see that...But even though I just met them I can see that they have some problems of their own.
'we lose people but we find new ones that's how it works' jeongin's words from yesterday repeated inside my head...what the hell does he mean by that? Is he trying to say that I have to move on and forget about my family?

I was so immersed inside my thoughts that I didn't notice that I have left the house and I was walking in the garden.
I stopped looking around...this place is huge.
" got you" a familiar deep voice pulled me out of my thoughts, I headed toward the source to see felix standing in a middle of huge arena...blindfolded. he was carrying a bow in his hands, and there were machines that were throwing balls at him from random places....he didn't even miss one...suddenly the balls stopped coming before he glanced my way pointing his arrow at me.
" it is dangerous to sneak on people like that" he said as the only visible part of his face...his lips turned into a wide smirk " minho hyung" he added

"How did you know it is me?" I asked, I mean come on the man is blindfolded...even if he has good senses he wouldn't have know it was me...it could have been one of the others
"From your smell " he said removing the blindfold before he smiled at me.
"I am joking, expect chan hyung who was just with me before he went to prepare lunch, you are the only one here...all of the boys left" he added chuckling.
" are you into archery now?" I asked approaching him.
" i see it as going back to the roots...being an archer is just like being a sniper...well with a bow and an arrow" he said putting the bow on his shoulder " I found it more fun to train...it teaches you patience and self control" he added.

I really missed judge him, why the hell did it think of him as a reckless person? For some reason he gave me that vibe.
"Well, next time when we are on a mission take your bow and arrow robbin hood" I said making Jim chuckle.
"I will prefer being called the arrow...you know the DC character,I tried archery after watching the show" he answered smiling at me " so hyung...do you want to try?" He added.
"Unfortunately since we live in the modern age, I didn't have any training to use a bow and an arrow" I replied crossing my arms above chest.
"Oh, well that means it is going to be more fun to teach you...come on" he said walking closer toward me.
"I don't think...'"