lost me (Minho×ot8)

chapter 53

Jisung's pov
I have no idea how much time passed since I fell between chanie hyung's arms...all I know is that I was crying...hard...all this time...this whole relationship I accepted that the boys had secrets that they had to keep...more like learned to accept it, but after finding out...that I am not han hoseok's son...my world fell apart...my mom was lying to me as well...why...why do we lie and hide secrets from the people we love and care about? What is the reason? Fear...egoism...

Since I found out I tried to act normal...to act playful...to laugh...to tease the boys...but just can't do it anymore...I am not like them...i can't and I don't want to keep secrets from my loved ones.
I felt a warm presence behind me before a pair of two arms pulled me into back hug.
" I am sorry baby" hyunjin whispered into my ears.
"For what exactly? For living my whole life in a lie or for the secrets you are hiding from me" I replied with a raspy voice...i nugged hyunjin who let go of me before I pulled back from chan's hold."tell me jinie" I added.

"For everything...i need to tell you something...but I promise you that after telling you, the only thing I can't tell you about is india's mission and everything related to it...I am not hiding anything from you...I swear on my mother's memory" hyunjin said staring right into my eyes...he is not lying...I can see it.
"What is it?" I asked clearing my throat." And what the hell is so important about that damn mission?" I added.
"I can't tell you that...but the other thing...let's wait for all of us to be together which means we need felix to get sober" hyunjin said rubbing his forehead.
"Hyunjin....I am tired of this...I swear...I...i don't know who my father is...it could be anyone...and...I don't know how I am going to face them..."

"Hyung what happened?" Jeongin entered the kitchen cutting me off midsentence " What do you mean you don't know who your father is? Why are you crying?"He added running toward me.
"I...it..." I took a deep breath before I told the younger about what I found out " i don't want to explain this one more time ...you can tell the others" I added.
"We will figure something out...we can look into your mother's past..."
"No, I need to talk to her first" I cut chan hyung off shaking my head...my only problem is that I don't know how to approach her...I am hurt...i am angry...I am so angry at her...

At that exact moment minho hyung entered the kitchen, all of us looked at him at the same time making the older stop.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt you" the older said about to walk away.
"What happened between felix and you?" I asked, his eyes widened for a moment...he really seemed taken back by my question.
"What happened between felix and I?"He asked back.
"Yeah, something clearly happened to him when he was at the Park's...you were with him...Did he tell you something?" I said again.

"I...no...he didn't..."
"You are hiding something hyung...it is obvious you are not the type of person who could get nervous easily but you are acting off right now...just freaking tell me" I yelled hitting the counter.
"Jisung" chan hyung said looking worried " you need to calm down..."
"I need to find out about what happened with felix...that's what I need right now" I cut the older off my eyes not leaving minho.
"I swear to you jisung...I don't know what happened between them" minho hyung said before he left the room without waiting for an answer...great...just great.

"I am not letting felix hide something else from us after coming clean...well if that was the only secret he is keeping" I said looking at my three boyfriends.
"Guys, I found something" changbin hyung popped out of nowhere " it is Min taehyun " he added.
"Jeongin go get seungmin from felix's room...don't wake the older though...hyunjin you..."
"On it " hyunjin said running out of the room probably to get minho hyung.

Changbin's pov

I took a seat on my chair as everyone except felix entered my office.
" before changbin begins...guys I know that a lot is going on lately...and it has never happened to us before...getting distracted from our mission like this...we will take care of everything but please remember that our primary focus is kang heechul" chan hyung said looking around...he is right...I feel like we are getting worked up with everything going on and we forgot our main mission." We will tell felix later but jisung found out that captain han is not his father" chan hyung added  looking around the room and to be exact at seungmin and I.