lost me (Minho×ot8)

chapter 67

Jeongin's pov

Silence filled the room as I went throught few files from work, I was sitting next to seungmin hyung who was laying on my bed staring blankly at the ceiling...it felt comfortable...no fighting and no yelling for once...
" I told lee minho that if he wants to stay with us, he needs to consider the boys' feelings" seungmin hyung said, I swear just looked toward the older so fast that I almost snapped my neck.
"You did what?" I yelled jumping into my feet...thank god i didn't drop the computer but i just throw it on the bed.

He can't be serious right...he is the last one I expected to agree to something like this...maybe chan hyung...maybe changbin hyung would have said something like that...but seungmin...this must be a joke...he made it clear to all of us years ago that he won't allow anyone one into this relationship after chan hyung joined.
"They like him...love him...I can't be selfish..."
"You are nothing but selfish hyung...since the moment you accepted to let jisung hyung join us, you put your happiness before all...you always were the one who made the ultimate sacrifice...unlike the rest of us you had no choice...you were with jisung hyung and you had to watch him fall for other people...I am sorry I won't allow you to get hurt again" I cut the older off, his lips immediately turned into wide smile before he stood up to lean on the bed frame.

"You know them...when they love...they love with all their hearts...I can't be the one who stand up in the way of their happiness...it is up to lee minho..."
"But he doesn't want them" I cut him off again shaking my head " or us...he is not polyamorous clearly" I added.
"Neither was I...or you..most of us weren't...people change" the older replied taking a deep breath " he kissed both felix and jisung...and he talked to me...he is considering it...he is considering joining us" he added.
"Well, I don't want to be with him" i said crossing my hands above his chest " and since when is this happening? I thought each time one of them approached him he ran away to cry about his dead wife "I added before I froze...shit...that was really insensitive.

"Inie" seungmin hyung said shaking his head.
"Listen, I don't hate him...i feel sorry for what happened to him....and I know that you don't hate him as well...but it is okay to be protective of our relationship hyung...we were happy for four years...well kind of...we don't need someone else" I said shaking my head...I mean last year was a mess without hyunjin hyung around...but still.
"You and I are on the same page...but there is three of them..."
"This is not an election, this is our feelings...I don't have romantic feelings toward lee minho end of discussion" i cut the older who sighed.
"Neither do I...but I didn't have any romantic feelings toward anyone of you when all of this started" seungmin hyung said getting up."If he stays in the team it is going to be hard for us to work with him...let's be real" he added

I really thought I would be the one who will try to convince seungmin hyung not the other way around...what is going on inside his head?
"Tell me the truth are you developing feelings for lee minho?" I asked out of nowhere making the older freeze.
"What no..."
"Then why are you doing this..."
"I don't want them to get emotionally hurt..."
"What about your emotions..."
"It is okay...I am used to it..."
"It is not okay" I yelled cutting him off, his eyes widened at my outburst and I kind of regret yelling at him...I didn't mean it...but I stand behind my words.
"If he decides to join us...I am okay with it jeongin...don't worry " seungmin hyung said getting up.

"But..."
"I promise you" he said gripping my shoulders. I frowned staring at the older...it is always like this with seungmin hyung...he fights us off, he yells he gets angry but at the end he backs down first...as much as i love him...i hate this behaviour in him " you are against this because you care about how I feel..."
"So should the others" I cut him off.
"I am really tired...I am tired of fighting over this...fighting hyunjin after we barely came back together...I want some peace...I want to move on...to go back as we used to be...Happy...to focus on our work...we are miserable jeongin...it is as clear as the sun...we don't know maybe he will change that" seungmin hyung said making me sigh.