lost me (Minho×ot8)

chapter 80

Jeongin's pov
I slowly left the bed leaving seungmin hyung sleeping...I can't believe that he is doing it again...but I know every well that he is right...the others got too involved with lee minho...I didn't just agree because he asked me to...with one last glance at the older I left the room just when I was about to head downstairs I was met with none other than let's say our next boyfriend.
"Hey" he said making me frown, okay I agreed to this but it is hard.

"Seungmin hyung said you have some of my boyfriends " I said scanning him.
"And I told me that as long as the two of you are against..."
"We agreed to give you a chance don't mess it" I cut the older who looked confused.
"Jeongin one of the main reasons why I can't be with you is the fact that some of you don't want me...but it is not the only one...since my late wife I didn't think I will open my heart to anyone again and I did...but I can't enter a relationship filled with lies and secrets" minho said making me sighed. Then why the hell don't you just leave? I wish I can say that to his face but I know then he won't believe that I am willing to give him a chance...I mean I don't want to...more like I have to...if I tell him that...he won't agree and I will mess things buy more...god my head is hurting from this damn drama.

"If you mean hyunjin hyung's secrets...he knows that...and he might as well tell us about the mission just to get to you" I said making him frown...at least one good thing could came out of this...knowing the truth about india' s mission...I am trying to give hyunjin hyung space but I am dying to know...i need to know.
"I am an agent jeongin" minho said, I crossed my arms scanning him.
"So?" I asked tilting my head.
"I know when someone is lying...and I know as well when someone is forced to do something you don't want me...I am sure you are agreeing to this because Seungmin talked you to this...and he is doing it for the others." Minho said taking a deep breath " putting everything else aside...if you don't truly want to be with me...i can't be with you...feelings can't be forced" he added taking me off guard.

"As if you want to be with me...you probably only want the three..."
"You know I fell for hyunjin first right" he cut me off...of course he did...what a big surprise...but finally he admitted it out loud...honestly I get him...he is scared...I would have done the same...I wouldn't have admitted my feelings easily if I something like what happened to the older happened to me.
"We all did lee, you did nothing new" I said making him chuckle...I froze hearing his laugh...that's new for sure...at least to me.
"You know I am your hyung right " he said humming...what is wrong with this man now?
"You are crazy...just pick something" I yelled without realising...he is so frustrating I swear...I know I said I get him but I just want a closer to this drama...

" believe me I am as lost as all of you...I want to just let go..." he stopped midsentence as his smile fell " I don't know what to think...or do anymore." He added.
"As I said clearly we don't like each other..."
"I don't hate you..."
"I meant romantically I don't  hate you too..idiot" his eyes widened at what I said, I have never talked to my hyungs like this before and no matter what he is older but I can't help it " sorry...I am just sick and tired of this drama okay" I added gripping my hair.
"And to end this drama we can start by accepting each other and letting go of the past" both of us looked to the stairs to see seungmin hyung walking down as he rubbed his eyes.

"Seungmin..."
"We are finding it hard to accept new person because it is been too long...but it happened...you are a part of this now...refusing your feelings won't bring your family back...and refusing you won't burry three of our boyfriends' for you...we are all polyamorous now...we fell for each other and we can fall for you...you like three people which means you are too...this is taking too long...we were so fixed on refusing you that we forgot about everything else", seungmin hyung said cutting lee minho off...he is kind of right " this is our chance to heal everything...our relationship and you...as one team we can bring justice for your family. " he continued " it might take time but we will figure our feelings out just like before...one step at a time... so I am asking you lee minho...do you agree to be our boyfriend? " He finished making my eyes go wide.