lost me (Minho×ot8)

hyunlixin 3

Felix's pov ( a week after Jeongin's birthday)

I didn't go to the training facility for a whole week. Now Hyun-jin didn't stop texting and calling me, but I ignored him...I didn't hear from Jeongin since he texted me that day, and he apologised.
This is a mess, after all these years...I knew hyunjin since 2013 and we have been dating for almost four years now and not once he mentioned anything about being a polyamorous...i mean according to what i understood this is the first time he felt like this...I am losing my damn mind...I am pissed as hell but at the same time I miss him so damn much.

I couldn't stop thing about this...how could I? I love hyunjin but I don't understand this...I am not polyamorous...or I think I am not...I mean I have never thought about something like this...since I was young I knew I was bisexual but I didn't think of having a multiple partners...it is not a common thing.
"You know that you need to go back to the organisation right?" Mr wang said entering the living room...I have been crashing in his house for the past week.
"I don't want to see him..."
"What the hell happened between you two?" He cut me off making me sigh.

"Jackson I don't want to talk about" I murmured shaking my head.
" are you aware that he knows you are here with me?" He asked.
"I don't care I said hugging the pillow close to my body " I am hurt... I am confused and i am hell of angry...at hyunjin and at myself...because all I want to do now is to see the older...I miss him so damn much...since we started to date this is the first time we didn't see each other for more then two days...I hate this...I hate this so damn much.
"Lix, Mrs hwang has ordered you to come back...I told her that I will try to convince you but seeing how stubborn you are I need to tell you...it is an order not a request anymore " Jackson said crossing his arms above his chest.

"No..."
"I will drag you there myself if I have too...get up from the damn couch right now and stop acting like some broken hearted teenager...you are an agent...I am waiting in the car " he yelled glaring at me...but I am still young...and I am emotionally hurt...I want a time out...I want to just stay alone...I want to figure out what I should do next...I am very aware that I only have two choices...and I know the two are going to hurt me.
I slowly got up from the couch and headed to the room Jackson allowed me to stay in before I changed my clothes and went outside to find the older sitting inside his car.

I silently took a seat next to him before he started to drive, hyunjin is going to be there for sure...and maybe jeongin...what happened after I left? I didn't want to read any of Hyunjin's messages...my head is a mess right now and I know if I see him or talk to him I might get influenced by that...so I pretty much just have the ride to the training facility to decide what I am going to do...either let hyunjin go...or try to understand him...i know I thought he might be lying to me...that he was just trying to make me feel better about this...but honestly I know him enough that I am sure he will tell me to my face if he doesn't love me.
"Damn it" I whispered under my breath.

"I am sorry" Jackson said making me glance at him" for how I spoke to you earlier but you really need to face whatever this is...and you know you can't shut yourself out like that" he added.
"I know", I replied humming.
"You said you don't want to talk about it but if you change your mind...I am here to listen...I care about you as my little brother felix okay?" He said looking between the road and I.
"Yeah, right big bro eyes on the road I am too young and handsome to die unlike you" I said making him burst into laughs.
"You are mean I swear " he answered shaking his head.

"I learned from the best" I said making him nod.
None of us said a word after as he drove in complete silence...I looked from the window watching the street...I bite my lips getting lost inside my thoughts again.
"Hyung" I finally said the older looked at me with wide eyes.
"You called me hyung...this must be serious" he said making me hum.
"Do you think...do you think that hyunjin fell out of love...with me" I said unsure of my words...Jackson eyes' turned wide after hearing me.
"What? What made you think of that? Like no...that would never happen...the boy is madly in love with you...you should have seen him the past days he is walking around like a zombie...he is so lonely as well you just stopped going to the training facility and jeongin left" Jackson said making me freeze.