lost me (Minho×ot8)

chapter 88

Seungmin's pov( next day)
I laid on my bed watching the ceiling, the boys just went out...they came to check on me before they left...hyunjin,changbin and chan hyung are preparing to propose to the other three...of course they left separately because it is supposed to be a surprise for felix,jisung and jeongin but if you ask me...the youngest figured what they are planning out.
Jisung spent the night with me yesterday he told me about the dinner he had with the president and his family...Mrs lee gave him a hard time with all the questions she asked him...she even wanted to know about the boys and i more...but good thing all of them are accepting of us...jisung will probably invite them to the wedding.

A light knock on the door cut my thought.
"Hyung, you don't need to knock" I said before the door was opened revealing minho hyung who was carrying a plate.
"How did you know it was me?" He asked walking inside the room , he still a hit tense around me....probably because he didn't forgive himself yet and it is okay for now...as long as he doesn't panic and ran away....it is fine.
"Well, it is you or yuna...ryunjin won't come to check on me...and yuna left ten minutes ago" I answered, it is only the four of us...yuna turned out to be a very nice girl...she checks on me daily but not to the point that makes it uncomfortable and annoying.

"Yeah, I brought you dinner" he said putting the plate next to me.
"Are you staying with me?" I asked, the older looked surprised by my question before he nodded and sat on the edge of the bed." I guess you are the type of person who takes time to open up to people" I added.
"Isn't that obvious?" He asked making me chuckle.
"But we kissed hyung come on " I said teasing him.
"Seungmin, seriously just can't act like it is not my fault..."
"Well, you don't need to it is not" I cut him off" and stop looking at me like that...like I am damaged or broken " I added clenching my jaw...damn our conversation really made a left turn....why did I say that?
"Seungmin I wouldn't think of such thing..."

"I know, I am sorry" I said biting my lips.
"Your food is getting cold you should eat before taking your meds" the older said.
"I will eat if you feed me " I replied taking the older off guard." What you are my boyfriend now....aren't you?" I added.
"You were just angry....your mood swings are really something...but I will feed you" the older said smiling a little....god...his smile is so beautiful, I know I am letting my guards down around him so quick but I just can't help it...I have to admit it...he is hot...he is smart and caring. There is nothing stopping me from falling in love with him...I won't say I am yet...but I am capable of falling for him.

"Sorry" I said chuckling " so how do you feel?" I added making the older frowned.
"About what exactly?" He asked me.
" the boys are getting married...I mean I know you fell for hyunjin first and he is getting married to jeongin how do you about that?"  I asked scanning his face.
"Actually that's a question for you....you were with them for years, I will be the only one left...Will you be okay marrying me?" The older asked making me freeze...I didn't expect him to ask me something like that.
"You are a part of this relationship now...I will be honest with you...we are still getting to know each other so my feelings are not as strong as they are to the others. I have never been that eager to get married either unlike the others...I don't need a piece of paper to prove that I love them or they love me back." I said making him hum " but yeah...someday I will marry you" I added.

"Glad to know" minho hyung answered.
"Isn't this going too fast hyung? We are already talking about marriage,  Did you fall in love with me already?" I said with a teasing voice.
Minho hyung just chuckled lightly before he grabbed the food and spoon and started to feed me completely ignoring my question.
I didn't say a word as he kept feeding me, my eyes travelled down his neck to see his necklace with his wife's ring in it...it is really remarkable that he still think and care for her until now...someone like minho hyung is hard to find...even with all his love to his dead wife he fell in love with hyunjin...that proves how sincere and strong his feelings are...the universe had  brought us together for a reason...to give him a second chance...because he deserves it....he deserves to love and be loved again...I really regret how I treated him before...I was just sick and tired of new people coming into the relationship not because I am against it.