lost me (Minho×ot8)

chapter 8

Jisung's pov
" come again" I said staring at felix with wide eyes, i saw him enter chan's room to update him about the mission so i followed after him " seungjoon ignored hyunjin and went for you" I added trying to contain my laughs...well I don't know if I should be relieved that that man didn't approach hyunjin or angry because he found my other boyfriend attractive...but this is hell of funny, hyunjin is not used to be ignored like that...I mean he has the power to even turn straight men, gays and lesbians straight....i guess he is losing his charm first our neighbour now our dead target.

"Are you telling me indirectly that hyunjin is more attractive than me and seungjoon should went after him?" Felix asked crossing his arms above his chest.
"What no, of course not baby...you are so hot...and amazing...all of you are" I said looking at chan hyung " I swear I didn't mean it like that...it is just hyunjin job to seduce people and i never saw him fail...I..."
"Jisung,  calm down felix is just teasing you" chan hyung said chuckling.
"You are mean" I said glaring at the younger.
"You deserve it" he answered rolling his eyes.
"That's why hyunjin was mad..."
"He was mad because we fought jisung...he needs to understand that things don't go as he pleases we have a say in this." Felix cut me off.

"But felix please..."
"I am not you jisung...I have no idea what goes on inside your head but I...we can't forgive him" he cut me off.
"You forgive him before...i don't know what he did but you forgive him...He is hurt...If you love him then you should..."
"That's my point...i forgave him more than once and he is still hurting me...and i am the bad guy...Love doesn't mean that I should disregard my own feelings to please your hyunjin, he chose to leave...he should deal with the consequences " felix said jumping from his chair " I have emotions too...he didn't care when I was begging him to say nor when jeongin cried for him...nor did he consider how hurt seungmin will be after he leaves...he didn't care about our feelings why should I care about his" he added.

I took a deep breath staring down the floor I get him...I blamed hyunjin when he first left but I just couldn't hate him...or stay away from him...i mean is by punching him...hating him i am going to change something...I don't know if I am stupid or just a forgiving person...maybe I am the one at wrong here...all of them think the same...no...I know they want to forgive him...they are just too stubborn to admit...or scared of getting hurt again.
"Just give him a chance...for me" I said staring at Felix with teary eyes...he seemed taken back by my state...I just hate this...I hate seeing us apart...
"No, you are not doing this jisung" he said pointing his finger at me" You can't just cry and give me those puppy eyes for me to forgive hyunjin...no" he added walking out of the room.

"Are you going to keep treating him like that?" I asked chan hyung who sighed.
"I am tired jisung, we just came back from a meeting and I need to talk with jeongin about.."
"We are a team hyung " I yelled cutting him off.
"Listen baby, I know you mean well...hyunjin and I talked" he said walking toward me" I am still angry at him but he knows I am willing to try and fix this...I can't force the others to do the same...hyunjin needs to approach them himself...give it time...we all know that time will heal everything" he added grabbing me by my shoulders.
"He made a small mistake and you are treating him like a damn criminal " I said pushing his hand off me.
"Jisung wait..." i didn't stay to hear him as I stormed out of the room.

"Hyung what is wrong?" Jeongin who was walking toward chan's room said looking at me confused.
"Nothing sweetheart...chan hyung is probably waiting for you inside" I said ruffling his hair before I made my way toward hyunjin's room.
"Hyunjin" I said opening the door, the taller was sitting on the edge of the bed clenching his hair.
"This was a mistake" he murmured.
"What was a mistake?" I asked approaching him.
" coming back" he answered looking at me with red teary eyes" maybe I shouldn't have reached out to you after I left...maybe I shouldn't have come and just stayed..."