lost me (Minho×ot8)

chapter 32

Felix's pov
I played with the pen between my fingers as my student did the exercise I assigned them in silence. I didn't stop thinking about my talk with hyunjin and jeongin at that matter...the older of the two said that the mission was important to him and I can't stop thinking about it....and what I said to jeongin...am I really pushing hyunjin way because I still blame myself for Mrs hwang's death like he said?

I mean I feel like it sometimes, hyunjin said he doesn't blame me but I feel like he is just saying that because of his feelings...would he have treated me the same if he didn't love me? And how about the fact that he was in India for the whole past year...what happened there? What the hell is this mission about? Or who is it about? I know hyunjin so well he is just like me so stubborn...well I am like him...I became like him...the way we trained together...the way hiding secrets from each other became a normal thing for us to the point that we started to do it with the others...seungmin said this is toxic...and you know what...deep down I know he is right...

If I want to figure out what happened with hyunjin last year..to find out about the mission he chose over us...I mean he said he gave up on it later but for sure it was important...i need to forgive him first...I was so blinded by the fact that I am tired of forgiving hyunjin to the point that I didn't even care why he left...the only thing I consider is that he left...just it...hyunjin and I will always have our differences...we will fight and maybe we won't get along from time to time but I care for him so much...I want him to open up to me...to us...which I know how hard it is going to be...why was he sent to India? It must be important to send a Korean agent into an aboard mission.

The sound of the bell pulled me out of my thoughts...I didn't even notice how the time passed.
"Okay everyone we will correct it next time...you can leave " I told the sudden who started to arrange their things as did I...some of them already started to leave clearly they are not interested in this class like me.
"Mr lee" I looked up to see the new twin students Park hajoon and hana...I found out they are the children of one of the richest business man in Korea Park Haeil.
"What is hana?" I asked the girl since she was the one who called my name.
"You remeber my name " she said smiling widely. Okay what's her deal?
"You are my student of course I would " I answered fixing my glasses.

"Yeah sorry " she said looking away embarrassed, oh come on don't tell me it is happening again...I had students crashing on me since I started to teach...they are so out of the minds...they are what like seventeen...god.
"So are you free this weekend?" She added taking me completely off guard.
"Why would you ask?" I answered trying to jump to conclusion...I am maybe wrong...right?
"Hana and I wanted to ask if you are available to attend a dinner party my parents are holding this Saturday " hajoon said making me frown." It is not just you...we invited all of our professors and the headmaster, my parents wanted to meet all of you" he added.

rich parents who are trying to see if the teachers of their kids are fit enough.. well this one of the best high-schools in the country what are they trying to accomplish here?
" we will see but most probably I won't be able to make it", I replied grabbing my back, I don't have time for this nonsense.
" please sir, we would really love to see you there I know we just moved in here but you are our favourite professor...I love you... I mean I love English...it is my favourite course " hana said panicking.
I scanned the two silently before I sighed " I will try my best", I replied leaving the classroom...

Timeskip later that evening
" I miss seungmin hyung" jeongin said pouting.
"He literally left this morning" I said chuckling at the younger. I was in the armory arranging our weapons it is either seungmin's or my job to take care of these things and since he is away i thought I will sort it out a bit.
" so you don't miss him?" Jeongin asked,he came after dinner and joined me here.
"I do, and I miss sugie too...they will he back soon " I said ruffling his hair before I took the bag that contained my sniper and put it on the huge table...I care a lot about this gun...it was a gift from Mrs hwang and since that day I didn't want to use any other sniper...